Hi Sunluvva,
Ouch I really feel for you, and thanks for your honesty on here.
I'm at the stage now that I feel guilty when I have a beer, would rather spend money on my boat or running gear now, its happenning but slowly.
In time I will explain more as you have. What you have written is very moving and yes inspirational.
I will never stop trying in whether it will be career rest or play. I see jogging as my long term play instead of sitting in any bar. And I certainly would not like to be on your side of reading the riot act, sounds painful.
Bear with me in getting peoples writing mixed up I will get there honest.
I'm glad things are stable for your sister at the moment, and I hope you will get back to Spain at some point. You come across as a very strong minded individual, so I'm sure things will work out for you.
I hope I have not come across in a negative way, I have my own goals and even if I don't manage all of them, I know I will be somewhere inbetween them. But I believe in never giving up. As one door closes another opens, its upto you where you go from there.
Now that i'm jogging again I'm slowly but surely feeling stronger both mentally and physically.
Hope you are all surviving this horible weather ok.