Hi All,
Jonny 'M' what are your shin splints?
Er people. I have just filled out an application form for open evenning at Leeds met, with looking at potentially doing a post graduate degree. It's not because of the meeting at the job centre, but looking at what else I can do to prove to people I'm worth taking a chance with in the workplace.
I'm worried if I get on a course, that at some stage a PTS episode occurs again, and I walk out, and I turn up for a meeting of any kind and while in a pts epsiode, turn up to a tutorial fo example, instead of of rearanging the meeting, I still turn up, expecting myself and the person in the meeting to understand whats happenning, that is wrong of me. I try so hard for people to expect what may happen, but it still affects people in different ways. Its why I'm alone all the time. I'm dammed if I warn try to explain what may happen, and dammed if I don't warn people.
I was meant to have a guidance advisour to help me in such situations, I saw him once. So thats only managing 10 weeks on a diploma course and just 3 weeks on another.
I won't stay anywhere where my pts makes people uncomfortable, not even on here.
You have all been great n here people, thanks for that.
believe me please I want to work, but I'm scared of my pts getting in the way, and after an episode the door is blocked for me to come back when well. This happens every time.
Sorry for secod long post, I understand why people may not read all the time.
Good luck Sunday SL. Hope you have a pleasent Sunday folks.
Edited: 16/02/2013 at 21:30