Giving up the booze

Can I?!!!

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04/03/2013 at 19:51

Hi All,

How are the poorly people doing?

I had emailed parkrun to say I would volunteer as a marshal but I didn't get a reply.

I won't try again this week, will try next.

It was lovely this past weekend.

I'm sorry if my posts are all over the place. I'm very disliked here in huddersfield, but happens every where I go, no matter how hard I try. So I get drunk, then try and stay sober for a while then I start drinking again. I really want to stop for good.

It's just as SL posted one time. Being stone cold sober watching other's saying and lol at the same old things, and repeating conversation is totally true.

I'm now in on my own, my boat and running, and in here is keeping me going. But I'm scared to meet people, as sooner or later I will have a PTS episode, then the binge drinking kicks in BPD, then I try to start all over again, its mentally and physically exhausting, knowing that the PTS really scares those around me, and I don't blame them for not wanting to  know me.

I did my shopping today, so I will try again to get to On Trak again in the morning. Its getting in through those dam doors, and then keep going.

I'm sorry for being down the bulk of my posts. I don't know any where else that may have shared some of or all of my experiences.

Is this natural feelings, as you spend more time sober, and concentrating on running etc?

Hope your all okay?


05/03/2013 at 09:37
Morning everyone - not popped in for a while so I hope everyone's OK.

Cinders - sorry to hear the little fella isn't too good and I hope he picks up soon.

Sinbad - I hope you made it to On Trak today and if you did, it will be good to hear about it. Going through the door is usually the hardest part, as you know. In the short time we've got to know you on here you seem to have had plenty of success. You decided not to be bullied by so-called friends, had a good result at the job centre, have made a big effort with the boat and, of course, with running. You're also very self-aware, which is always helpful in the long term. Are you having any ongoing support for the PTS and BPD? Oh, and there's no need to apologise for posting when you're down - plenty of us have done that!

I've slipped into a bit of a rut with drinking and no running again - not too far, I hope, to pull it back and just a few months ago things were much better...where's that reset button? Life has been a little tougher than usual, with several people close to me being diagnosed with serious illnesses recently. I also had to take one of our little cats to the vet to be put to sleep on Saturday, which is always a heartbreaking job. Still, it's important to take control of what you can and not fret too much about what you can't!

I hope everyone else is doing well.
06/03/2013 at 12:54

((( Apps ))) Very sorry to hear about your cat and bad news about people you know. 

I hope you can find your reset button and get back to where you want to be.

Sinbad, did you make it to On Trak?

Happy Birthday KC

Things rolling on here, little C still not quite his perky self and OH finally given in and seen a physio re his crippling back pain.  Little C has also been flagged as underweight by the schools' nurse team so that's a worry for us

06/03/2013 at 14:06

Afternoon everyone

*hugs* Apps, sounds like you are having a rough time of it at the moment.  I echo Cinders about finding your reset button and hopefully you will be inspired to get out and have a little run now the weather appears to be warming up a bit.

Sinbad, I'm also wondering if you made it to On Trak?

Hope Little C perks up again soon Cinders and that Mr C gets some relief from the physio.  Try not to worry about Little C's weight, he seems a happy, healthy little boy with plenty of energy so I'm sure he's fine.  I used to be really thin when I was younger and they probably would have classed me as underweight, but it was just becuase I charged around all the time and burned off all my food!  Shame the same thing doesn't happen now

Had a letter from the counselling people saying it will be about 12 weeks before there is a space, although I spoke to them yesterday and it could be a little longer as I've asked for either early morning or late afternoon/evening appointments so I don't have to take lots of time off work. 

Ankle is feeling a bit better now, doesn't start to hurt until about 3pm which is much better than hurting all day!  Can walk on it fairly normally now although I'm keeping off it as much as possible to let it heal.  Can't wait for the physio appointment on Friday to arrive, I'm getting really stressed about what they may say and just want to know.  Dreampt last night that the physio said that if I walked the VLM then I'd bugger it up so badly I'd never walk again.   Am sure that won't happen but I hate the sitting around all the time and the not knowing how long it will take to heal. 

Hope everyone is ok

06/03/2013 at 14:46

Hi All,

Thanks for that appaation. Sorry to hear your having a tough time at the minute, hope it improves soon. You have  the right idea, about concentrating on the things that are working.

Wow, Cinder's its all happenning for you to. Don't forget to look after yourself to. I'm sure things will get back to some form of routine soon.

TST sorry about hearing about your ankle still giving you problems. And I'm sure that your counselling is well worth the patience waiting for it to happen.

Although I made it to On Trak, they didn't open till 1pm, so I ended up getting really drunk instead. I'm drinking twice a week now, and since January I have put on half a stone.

I am recieiving on going suport for the PTS and BPD, but with all thats happenning, I'mstruggling to contact my psychologist, to know what and where to go next.

On the plus side I rang my key worker while in pub, and explained what happened, she has made a time for me to meet her on the 20th March, and go back to On Trak then. It can take 2 hours for the paperwork to be completed.

Thanks for bringing things back into perspective apparition. I forget just how much I'm doing at any one time. I hope you find that reset button.

I don't want to go into town, but I'm going back onto my weight watchers meals, and there only £1 in Iceland whereas there about £2.50 in Morrisions. I will see how it goes.

I was meant to be going to Leeds Met Uni open evenning tonight, but I just that I will be tring to do too much, if I went. Not the hangover though. I just need to slow up a little.

Hope your all okay. Try and be kind to yourselves, you all doing your best for yourself and your families.

07/03/2013 at 14:12

Hi All,

There changing the software again. by March 20th. I tried to log in with these details and it just would not let me.

I'm worried that I will lose all my friends, as I tried to register with the new software it would not accept my details saying my birthdate is not correct.

I worry as you are the first group of people that has not judged me, or pushed me out, I really appreciate that.

Its saying its incorrect format. simple saying YYYY.

I have no idea what do please help and advise.


07/03/2013 at 14:29

Who is changing their software sinbad? 

07/03/2013 at 14:29

I haven't seen anything about them changing the software Sinbad.  You must be logged in or you couldn't post.  I think you can message the moderators with questions, try that if you are worried.

07/03/2013 at 15:09

Hi All,

this all happened about 2 hours ago. I have it on my tool bar.

I tried all sorts.

They said that we won't be able to put our  emails or contact details on  screen.

I'm telling truth honestly.

That they had been testing the new software with some regulars, and that they gave it the thumbs up. That they couldn't give an exact date but we as users should work on the date of 20th March.

I will try and post the url on next post.

I no idea on how to make font bigger either


07/03/2013 at 15:12

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    07/03/2013 at 15:22

    That's just an advert Sinbad, trying to encourage you to subscribe to Runners World magazine.  If you subscribe to that then you get extra content on the website that you can't see otherwise.

    07/03/2013 at 15:23

    Hi All,

    How do I change my curser size?

    And I tried to contact moderator, but says there's aproblem, and that support has been emailed.

    Hope the above explains why  I'm worried.

    From the way I read info, any threads not saved will be lost when changes happen. The way I understood that is that all threads will be lost, and that any contact details atempted to be posted, will not be allowed.

    If anyone is interested my email is /forum/smilies/]

    07/03/2013 at 15:27

    Hi All,

    Another point I will add is.

    I have saved this to my favourates bar.

    Having done his, it now does not appear as part of the Beginners posts. I hope that made sense?

    07/03/2013 at 15:29

    From what I can gather the Admins periodically shut the forum down for a few minutes and clean out spammers and stuff and from someone else's post it looks like that is what happened earlier. Either that or the main server had crashed and while it's all rebooting everything is looking a little squiffy.

    Everything is fine Sinbad, they're not going to lock everyone out and delete all the threads, don't worry

    07/03/2013 at 15:31

    And you need to take your email out Sinbad, or it will be picked up by the spammers and you'll be inundated with junk mail.  I also think the forum rules say you're not allowed to put it up on the main forum, that's why there is personal messaging on here.


    07/03/2013 at 15:40

    Hi All,

    Okay thanks for info.

    I will try and delete email.

    07/03/2013 at 15:42

    Hi All,

    I can't find it now lol

    07/03/2013 at 15:50

    Hi All,

    I just tried to delete my email, it won't let me, I tried to find the edit bar, it won't let me find it.

    So there just talking to those who subscribe and get the extras?

    07/03/2013 at 16:12

    Hi All,

    I have tried all sorts, to get rid of my email, no success, the  edit icon just wont come up.

    Wish they would stop confusing me lol.

    No idea whats going on with my font size, I can barely read it.

    No can I get back to normal lol.

    07/03/2013 at 16:23

    OK, I have the same problem.  My font is tiny and I can't work out how to make it bigger.  And you're right sinbad, this thread doesn't show up in Beginners section.

    Previously bookmarked threads are now visible in "Followed Threads". You can also manage notifications on these threads from the "Forum Settings" section of your profile settings page to prevent being sent an email when a reply is made.
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