My plan is not to die at all.
I must be doing something right because it's worked so far.
It's irrational but the thought of time continuing to pass while I don't experience anything at all fills me with a feeling of dread.
I have only started feeling that way in the last few years - something about being middle aged and becoming aware of your own mortality I think.
Apart from that I am quite rational I think.
No! When I can't run any more, or worse still can't walk/function any more then thank you and goodnight.
My hubby's 90 year old uncle used to be fit as a fiddle, still misses his wife (who died 15 years ago) like hell, and spends his life staring out of his window. No thanks.
+1 to what Kryten said, almost exactly to the letter (oh except for the being normally quite rational bit).
Stupidly watched the Brian Cox thing about the universe where he explained how in the future the universe will eventually all just cease to exist then there will be an infinite 'nothing', not even time will exist and it completely did my head in.
Despite the daily s**t that life often throws at me I do kinda like it, and after all if things get too bad I can always dream for a while!
Having spent a large part of last year thinking I wouldn't see the start of this year, I can say, quite unequivocally, yes.
(and I wouldn't normally post such a transparent and open comment, but I've been doing a lot of thinking over the past 12 months or so....)
Yes because it means leaving my kids with my ex, I'd rather go when they're older and less dependent on me.
Scared of dying? No. the thought of being in pain, or being mentally capable and physically incapable scares me more. And that's not just me. I have instructions from mother that, when the time comes, I'm to "bop her on the head".
But I try not to live life being scared of the future - it will happen, come what may, live in today, leave tomorrow until then.
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