Crap at relationships

Hi all *waves*

Welcome back Nam.  Must be painful for you to see you Mum not make any effort to improve her health, but as others have sid, that is not your responsability.  Glad you had some nice time while you were away too.

Caz - sounding positive there.

PS - small steps sir.  You'll soon be back to normal.

I've had a few good days down here too.  Spent the day in London yesterday meeting friends.  Took in a movie in the afternoon - Headhunters in original language (Swedish I think - yep, I'm that clued up) before a few drinks in the evening.  I'm out all day at Wentworth with the trust for the golf and should be tidying up today.  I've got people staying at the weekend so should crack on.  in a minute maybe ......

BDB, Headhunters is in Norwegian, hehehe.  I need to go see that before it leaves the cinema.  I loved the book!

Cake, i'm doing Swedish Massage.  I've literally just started, and won't be officially qualified until December (all going well!), but even getting a chance to practice in different settings would be good

Glad things are moving along a bit Caz.  It is interesting what you say about photos....I've hardly got any photos of myself, as i've always hated looking at pics because it just reminds me how much i hate being fat. There are tons of pics of me on fb now, because of course it is so easy to take/load pics, but I don't look at them often.  That said, i'm less hateful of these pics, because I think 'that's the way I look, no sense worrying about it', but some pics where my face is thinner etc. make me realise how much I yo-yo about weight wise.  Not sure why I find it so hard just to get on an shift the weight?  oh yeah, i like eating too much, lol!

Lee, I hate photos too, which is why I only have formal ones around the house.  Holiday snaps tend to be off things rather than of people.  I didn't even want any photos taken at my wedding but I was persuaded otherwise eventually.

I don't define myself by how I look so I don't see much point in photos.  Memories are much more perfect and reflect emotions and other factors at the time, rather than just how you looked.

Lee the Pea wrote (see)

BDB, Headhunters is in Norwegian, hehehe.  I need to go see that before it leaves the cinema.  I loved the book!

Cake, i'm doing Swedish Massage.  I've literally just started, and won't be officially qualified until December (all going well!), but even getting a chance to practice in different settings would be good

God I hate this new format.

Without your qualification limited as to what can be do but can still put you in touch with a surtain monkey you might want to play with. You might get a group request in a few days for something called heard of cat's it's where the mischief is.  

Yeah that's fair enough Cake, for insurance purposes I couldn't be saying to folk i'm fully qualified or whatever, but if anyone was up for a free trial massage that'd be cool!  Will look out for request from mad folk

Just massaged flatmate - she loved it, hurrah!  Saud it seemed like i'd had more than just a weekend of training, so chuffed with that.  Meeting up with coursemates next week to practice too AND i've even done my homework ahead of schedule   hehehe

 Massage swot  You'll be running up to random blokes in the street and giving them a brisk rub down in the 'interests of scientific research' before we know it. 

In today's hot news ... it was hot  so sat outside a bit when I got home before tackling the latest batch of ironing.  Then in a complete brainstorm I washed my windows.  First time this year I think  No more running round the house nekid, people can see in now.

Ooo, TP, if I can't find a job within my profession, you have given me a wonderful idea.  I could do the massage equivalent of a street shoe shiner, but the customers are by invitation only.

Tickled Pink wrote (see)

 Massage swot  You'll be running up to random blokes in the street and giving them a brisk rub down in the 'interests of scientific research' before we know it. 

What a fabulous idea!!! 

SuperCaz wrote (see)

Ooo, TP, if I can't find a job within my profession, you have given me a wonderful idea.  I could do the massage equivalent of a street shoe shiner, but the customers are by invitation only.

Go for the men in expensive suits that look like they're in a hurry...chances are they'll be loaded, have pretty shiney shoes anyway, so you can charge them a tenner and bascially have to do eff all for it

Mawnin...

So what have I missed?  Caz is opening her own dodgy massage parlour?

Cake wrote (see)

((((((((((((((Nam))))))))))))))) You meet my mumthe other month and situation is very simular. All about having fun and quality of life and all that.

Cheers Cakey Boy.  Yes I try to look at it that way.  And thanks everyone too. x

 Nam lots of xxxx and ((hugs))

Caz,

The book is fab and I can't wait to try all the sourdough recipes that are in there... fancy making my own pretzls.

Glad things are progressing your end.  I saw your thread on 'how much of your past do you hang on to'.  Made me ponder.  I have lots of old B&W photos of my grandparents, great grandparents, great great grandparents etc...  I LOVE all that history.  Then strangely very few photos of my parents, and even fewer of me... like nothing between 13-18... Then photos re-start when I moved to London, when I went travelling etc.  I have binned a lot.  I don't tend to keep much from old boyfriends etc.  I know people who have every single love letter from anyone they've ever been with... in the days when one still wrote such things...?  LOL  But I know just what you mean about photos where you see you let yourself go and with hindsight you can see you were miserable then.  I have those too...

Not much going on here.  I'm swimming as much as possible as it keeps my mood positive.  Seeing friends as much as I can as it gets me out of the house. Trying to prepare for splitting the finances as much as possible. Going through the toot in those cupboards that you never look in, to work out what I need to take with me.  Adapting to living a single life and unexpectedly getting chatted up.

Swimming and friends are great.  Both lift my mood, my swimming is getting faster and stronger, and my friends are getting closer and showing their true worth.

Finances and house clearing is hard.  So much to do and so many memories.  What do I keep?  What would be unfair to take?  How much space will I have?  This really is proving to be a rollercoaster at the moment, but it needs doing so I am trying to work through it all logically and systematically and do a little each day until it starts to become too much.

Single life is strange.  I miss not having someone to bounce ideas off, and to reassure me that I am making the right decisions, but I have some wonderful friends who are helping me with that.  I just hope I am not becoming a burden to them.

And getting chatted up was something I really wasn't prepared for the first time.  It hadn't occurred to me that I might be interesting to someone as I'd not thought past moving out of here.  The last time was when I was a teenager, and things are quite a bit different as an adult.  In fact, I didn't even recognise it for what it was for a while!

Lovely sunny day here too....meeting my friend and her baby for lunch later and then cinema tonight. I'm not very good at lying in the sun but i will go for a walk in the afternoon cos its so nice out there

Nam wrote (see)

Mawnin...

So what have I missed?  Caz is opening her own dodgy massage parlour?

No that's me with the dodgy massage parlour; Caz is going for the more salubrious shoe shining business

It is scorchio here too   Been out in the garden since the back of 8!  Determined to make the most of it.  Off to the beach later with my pal for a coffee and amble about  Hope you're all enjoying it too.  What you going to see at the cinema SP?

Going to see 'What to expect when you're expecting'. Haven't seen the trailer but my friend wanted to see either  it or 'The Dictator so i opted for that one.

Not a lot of Crap this sunny weekend  

I decamped to my mothers yesterday afternoon.  She had a right go at me for being 'a mountain of fat' which I think is overstating the situation just a bit and that I must be a size 18 at least etc etc.  I am the same  size I was last year, I am wearing the same clothes, it is a bit bigger than I would like but it's not mobidly obese. <sigh>  The she game me a mint Magnum  and got humpy when I said no  thanks <bigger sigh>

Cycled into town this afternoon to change some trousers which I bought in Taunton last week, I was hard going at times and I had forgotten how bad cycling in city traffic is but it was a lovely day for it

What up dawgs!!  Got my swimming mojo back.  Ho yes.  4 times this weekend in the lake - 3 solo and one club sesh.  Bloody lovely.  I got so hot in my wetsuit at the tri sesh, I had to take it off.  Rest of the time just went in, in bikini. 

Thinking about doing a 4 mile hilly race tomorrow but it may be that the lake calls me instead.