Bill,
Focus on trying to lose weight...and all you will see is the weight you have to lose ahead of you, in itself not a very inspiring vision..
Instead, try focus on enjoying life - walks in the autum air, running for the fun of it (even if you only get out for 10mins sometimes), fun with family and friends, yummy wholesome food, the joys of relaxed moment to moment living just with the knowledge that you will acheive your goals.....
and you will get there!! Have faith x