I should probably have said as part of my post that I am a dietitian. I'd recommend seeing one if you can - you'd certainly be an appropriate referral if you want to ask your GP.
I'd have to agree that being overweight is preferable to severe depression. It's not an expression I particularly like, but you can be fat and fit - weight isn't the be all and end all of everything.
I try to eat good stuff like fruit and veg, pasta etc., only use sweeteners with coffee and avoid sweeties nuts and chocolate. After a run I tend to eat like a horse!
So in hindsight I will try to keep a diary (new years resolution) and see how it goes. Sarah I may well send you a food diary...I have tried sticking to salads before but tend to get rather bored of them. I do love my pasta usually with a very thin sauce. I'm not a dairy fan except for mullerlight yogurts. I will also give Quorn a try.
Happy new year to you all and I sincerely hope or better still intend to give a positive report in the very near future!
A few things here.
Firstly, after a run do you feel especially hungry? Lots of people make the mistake of 'rewarding' a run with lots of food, when in reality the calorie burn isn't that great. It's easy to overcompensate and eat more than you need to.
Secondly, wanting to lose weight doesn't mean you have to eat nothing but salad! If you restrict your diet in such a way it's no surprise that you'd get bored and slip back to old habits. You need to make changes that are sustainable and, preferably, enjoyable. That way you won't be left wanting.
If appetite is a problem, which sounds the case, then you need to find a way of satisfying it and/or overcoming the desire to eat. Things like chewing sugar free gum simulates the action of eating without the intake of calories and can suppress appetite. And the minty fresh taste of gum often makes other food less appetising - the same goes for brushing your teeth. Or have sugar-free mints or other hard sweets - they give your mouth something to do other than eat. Drinking water is a great idea - satiety (feeling satisfied after eating) is partly triggered when receptors in the stomach recognise fullness. Drinking a large glass of water, or any low calorie drink, takes up some of the stomach capacity and so you're far more likely to consume less food when you eat. So drink regularly, especially 10-20 minutes before the start of a meal.
Good luck with the food diary. It's easier if you can write things down as you eat them rather than relying on memory at the end of the day. Lots of my patients have found it so useful that they keep it up after the initial week and goal setting, just to keep an eye on how things are going. Some have also found it as a motivator in itself - they don't want to have to write down that chocolate bar or extra Yorkshire pudding, so they think twice about eating it!