Mental illness and running

I wanted a place where we could get advice and support.

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13/10/2012 at 13:34
Ahhh; T. Mouse said she agreed with the idea that you can suddenly get ill after pushing so hard. Like catching a cold when you start a taper before a race cos you'd been pushing to do all the training.
By Eck is going to run a marathon soon so should be tapering, so when she felt a bit poorly she was probably attacked by the taper germs.
I don't know if that's any clearer, might be worse sorry.

I'm still lazy, why aren't I getting on with it? I have loads I want to do today
14/10/2012 at 13:03

I didn't stay lazy yesterday, tackled the garden wilderness that Creepy neighbour has left for 8 years, almost done now  

I hate sunny days though, creepy sits right outside our joint front door on a horrible grimey little chair chain smoking and drinking. 

He got very drunk yesterday and confronted me about not wanting to talk to him (again) He's so horrible, I know I should just go out any way cos that's what I want to do today but I just can't bear it. 

*SOLB climbs out of the bedroom window to hang the washing out again*

14/10/2012 at 15:00

Do you want me to come and punch his f***ing lights out, or would that be counter productive?

14/10/2012 at 15:25
I think that's an excellent idea Mr P, do you want some gloves? I don't think you'll want to touch him otherwise *shudders*
14/10/2012 at 15:55

Haha! Funny, but still illegal. And he'd only get drunk and ask why you got someone to beat him up.

If you feel threatened or harrassed SOLB then report him to the Police, that's what they're there for. I guessing that if this guy is unlikeable and creepy to you, he comes across to other people like that too. It's also likely that he's done this before and may be it's been reported, may be it hasn't. If you share the same housing provider/landlord then definitely report his behaviour. Whatever you do, do something because you deserve to feel safe and confortable in and around your own home.

14/10/2012 at 23:01

Trying to keep active - 2km run this evening to keep pace with my virtual gym buddy

15/10/2012 at 20:51
Solb, we did 4 miles in a super quick 38 minutes
15/10/2012 at 22:39

Good going by 'eck

18/10/2012 at 00:45

hey all

I had a really fab muddy run today, I loved it kinda reminded me why it's worth the hassle when I don't want to go. 

I've come home to an OCD nightmare though, the hot water tank has broken so all my rituals for washing up and cleaning are compromised. I've been in a real spin with it tonight, really, really struggling. I think I have it now. I feel really uneasy but not so unbearably frantic about it. I wouldn't like to admit how many times I've boiled the kettle tonight!! I am now wondering if my life would just be easier if I gave in and bought a table top dishwasher. I hadn't stopped to consider how much of an impact just the washing up ritual has but it takes about 2 hours start to finish and if I'm interrupted, I get the angle wrong for something or drop anything on the draining board or eight million other things I have to start the whole lot over again from the beginning. It's such a drain on time....although maybe that would be too much of a cop out and I should leave it to be worked on with the CPN. 

The food thing is still going brilliantly I am so thrilled, I had never imagined we'd get it to this point. I thought we were aiming to make the 'safe food'  list less restricted so I wasn't compromising my health so much with the missing nurtients or hitting too low on kcals but actually it's massively exceeded that. I can eat just about anything now, I still think about it but if I focus and rationalise and get a bit brave I can do it. I still haven't even started on losing control over  it all, eating something someone else has made, or touched or anything and I haven't tried eating in front of other people but I'm still just astounded. Eating more has also got the pleasant side effect of dropping off some of the excess weight mucking up my metabolism for so many years has caused  

Errrr am I babbling? I don't want to stop long enough for OCD to start shouting at me. 

I'm planning on going to Abingdon to cheer on by eck on Sunday (if I'm well enough) thought I'd see if anyone else fancied it ... we can eat all the jellybeans we bring for By Eck and slurp coffee and generally delight in our laziness! 

The plan for the next couple of weeks is to try running every day to see if that helps with the feeling that I don't have the right rhythm in my life to stay well. I feel like I've been trying and failing to get a decent routine for somewhere between 18 and 12 months now; now that my asthma is behaving enough to allow short runs I feel quite optimistic about using running to reset that rhythm ... it's worked before at least  

Right I suppose I'm going to have to sit quietly and have a little chat with my OCD mind otherwise I'll only stay up until I'm too exhausted, dive into bed then have to get up again because OCD has ambushed me with a horrible consequence that I don't have the energy to reason or fight my way through. Onwards and upwards and all that! 

Night everyone, thanks for being there (lurkers and posters alike) 

18/10/2012 at 10:55


Today is feeling more manageable though it turned into a very long and annoying night! 

I'm off to the gym now for a gentle session and running a less muddy, hilly route than yesterday this evening. I do feel better for putting running in every day. Hope I've cracked the life's rhythm problem  

How are you all doing? Positive,, not so or somewhere in between? 

18/10/2012 at 11:01
Morning Solb glad to hear you got some sleep.
Moo and I are trying to have a less busy day. I am exhausted. I want to run tonight but know I really need to sleep
18/10/2012 at 12:37

'lo all!


Great progress SOLB


I have a work HR meeting today - gulp

18/10/2012 at 13:11

Sounds like a good idea to take it easy by eck, sleep is definitely more important than running this close to Sunday's little run. 

Thank you Bear, good luck with HR. Are you expecting anything to come of it or is it just a box ticking exercise? 

18/10/2012 at 17:52

It's an "about to get rid of Bear" exercise


Knew it was coming and in many ways it's freedom so not all bad

18/10/2012 at 17:55
Oh poor bear. Is it retirement on health grounds?
18/10/2012 at 18:12

Not technically as I haven't worked there long enough but affectively that. I do have the option to resign, not sure which looks better. Any thoughts peeps?

18/10/2012 at 18:29
Talk to the benefits people as it can affect how long you need to wait before claiming things like jobseekers etc
19/10/2012 at 11:53

oops - effectively!


Saw the CMHT psych today for the initial appt - I'm now started on combination drugs

20/10/2012 at 12:31

Oh bear I'm really sorry about work sweetheart, that's tough. I don't know about whether resigning or not is better, my gut instinct is that it's probably easier for you if you don't resign and are asked to leave on health grounds. I think if you took a gap in your CV to a new employer and said I was unable to work because of an illness, I've done X, Y and Z treatments and I am now better and have proved it with X voluntary role of so many weeks/months then that wouldn't be the end of the world from a employment perspective .... but I don't really know. It might be worth having a chat with the CAB, though I have to admit I have never found them particularly helpful. Maybe Mind's legal advice service would be worth a call 

I once got sneered at by a CAB volunteer when describing why I couldn't share with the OCD and paranoia. He sneered and smirked through the descriptions then said 'and does this 'illness' have a naaaaame?' I burst into tears and walked out. I should have complained about him but it was in the middle of the homelessness stuff and I'd already had two breakdowns and I couldn't face it. Still wish I had, creep!! 

How are you feeling about tomorrow by 'eck? Is Moo still poorly?

Oh Bear I am so pleased about the change in your medication, I know that's what you were hoping for. Hopefully you'll feel less tired and more connected to the world now. Which seems fairer given how hard you are working on your keeping bear busy routine.  

20/10/2012 at 18:11
Comes in for wonderful hugs from her special friends. I will need to picture you lot with me, cheering me on and running bits with me. I am undertrained but enthusiastic.
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