Mental illness and running

I wanted a place where we could get advice and support.

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20/11/2012 at 22:48

That's brilliant SOLB

20/11/2012 at 22:54

I think I want to do more cooking - I always used to love cooking but have rather stopped lately because of low mood


First step is to clean up the kitchen so that I can see the work surfaces again

20/11/2012 at 22:56

I don't really need to gain weight, I'd fecked up my metabolism so monumentally that I didn't start losing it until I started eating more (I know that doesn't sound like it can be true, but it really is) I think the anti psychotics affect the way your body makes and stores fat too the mostly I think it was the repetitive accidental fasting. 

I just need to make sure I don't lose too much and get it stable and healthy and nice and normal  

I think appreciating food for something other than whether it conforms to the rules will help loads. I think I'm not bothered about food but then I never do more than the most basic cooking, I don't bother adding sauces or spices or even combining stuff especially ... I was really shocked at all the layers of flavour in Sossidge's butternut squash curry cos I don't cook properly and I've not eaten other people's food for years ..... kinda cool journey I get to go on  

SOLBTitchysis needs some food making for her to take home and put in the freezer cos she can't stand and cook after her knee operation so if it's not horrific I can help her too  

20/11/2012 at 22:59

We can cheerlead with kitchen ... I wonder if it's best to get some order first. I move all the washing up to one space, then throw away any rubbish. Give the sink and draining board a quick clean then do the washing up followed by the satisfying magic wipe down of the sides (which makes everything so much better) then I clean the cooker...I suspect it doesn't matter which order you do it (within reason) but having smaller jobs within the whole that you can tick off and achieve makes it easier if you are feeling a bit overwhelmed. Wish we could help 

20/11/2012 at 23:01

I am building my new "to do" list - just wish I could get up more easily but I lie in a daze then all of a sudden something clicks and I feel compelled to get up.


Yay for my cheerleaders


We can nag about eating stuff (but really I'm just so pleased to see your progress)

20/11/2012 at 23:07

thanks me too, it's not that I have nothing left to fight but after so long of fighting and fighting and feeling like I was getting nowhere all of us sudden everything is just clicking into place. I feel like the real me behind all the difficulties in life and in the psychiatric stuff is just so much stronger. I feel like I know who I am at last. The nicest bit of all is that I'm able to be real Solb with the mini's who I've barely wanted to see for the last 18 months cos pretending to be me was just too exhausting. 

I still can't get my head around how much better I am. I don't mind that I'll still have all the little battles to fight, it's just so amazing to be me fighting them  

20/11/2012 at 23:10

Ooo it's late. I had better get to bed 

Night night all, 


20/11/2012 at 23:18

Night lovely xxxxxxxx

21/11/2012 at 08:08
Reads back over the posts from yesterday and beams with pride.

I was contemplating cancelling Alice tonight because moo is poorly and I feel yuck and tbh, I'm scared. But your messages of hope and encouragement made me realise that I really need to grasp this opportunity.

Bear, I need to declutter my kitchen ( and house) but it's a huge task with moo 'helping'. Lots of the stuff belongs to Mr by eck ( it's part of his AS) so it's really really tough to do much.
21/11/2012 at 08:51
I beamed then, so glad you are not cancelling on Alice.

Hmm I guess having 'helpers' must make it significantly harder to declutter. I think happy, engaged mini's are much more important than tidy houses even through the ocd

We talked loads yesterday
21/11/2012 at 09:03
Mummy by eck is coming round for a chat today. She wants to come off lithium because of the side effects. I am concerned because her psychologist isn't keen on switching her to another drug which still works, doesn't have the same side effects, but isn't generally prescribed on the NHS. I know if the drs don't agree she wi'll just stop the lithium and then the bipolar stuff will come flooding back. Urgh! I do agree the side effects are bad.

Anyway, moo is still scooting around without many clothes on so I need to fix that soon. He's reached the 'independent' stage. That means I'm not allowed to do much for him.
21/11/2012 at 09:23
Oh that sounds really worrying by eck, presumably the docs are aware of the risks that not discussing meds with her may lead to non-compliance.
Will be thinking of you today.
*grins at Moo* I haven't got dressed yet either!
21/11/2012 at 10:06
Right, I have managed to get the child dressed, put a load of washing on, sweep the living room floor and start to declutter the kitchen. I will save my celebratory cuppa until my mum arrives, but moo is being rewarded by the chance to listen to an amazing piece of choral music. Even his car is enjoying it.
Solb, getting dressed is only necessary if you need to go out, but does help to structure your day. Shall I stick the kettle on for you?
21/11/2012 at 10:32

Yes please  

I want to go to the gym and I need to go to the post office so clothes would be a good idea at some point! 

I love the thought of Moo's car enjoying the choral music  

Hope it goes well with your Mum today, will be thinking of you 

21/11/2012 at 10:51
I am still waiting for mummy by eck. But I don't want to chase her because I don't want to push her.

Tries to waft tea fumes towards a sleeping bear.

Solb, how are you doing with food today?
21/11/2012 at 10:54

*bounces on Bear's bed* that ought to help 

I've eaten yoghurt for breakfast but I'm looking through recipe books now what do you all want for lunch?  

21/11/2012 at 13:16
Mummy and daddy by eck kidnapped moo so I chipped carrots and courgettes for the freezer, and made a carrot cake for moo.
He is now home and eating cheese bread. The cough has returned and he is talking to the Dr on his Olay phone. The only words I can make out are "poorly" and "bye"...
21/11/2012 at 13:46

Grrr I slept in again, didn't helkp that I forgot to set the alarm clock.  I must get into a routine of getting up as soon as I wake up.  Just the act of getting vertical helps.


What piece of choral music are we talking about, by 'eck?  I've recently started liking choral music thanks to the wonderful Eric Whitacre who writes the most goose bumpingly gorgeous stuff.  I got to see him at the proms and it's even more amazing live

21/11/2012 at 13:57

Blech it's blowing like a good 'un out there

21/11/2012 at 14:05
Allegri's miserere mi.
I should be going to hear the sixteen in February for a lovely valentine's day treat with Mr by eck and 2 of moo's Godparents. I would love to take moo as e connects with music in such a magical way. Sadly, I can't trust him to sit still and not join in.
Bear, it's ok to have less vertical days. Don't beat yourself up.
Right, carrot cakes have been iced and are ready for eating. Does anyone want one?
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