Mental illness and running - Page 169 - Health + Injury

Bricki

30/11/2012 at 08:35

Morning All

Bricki - the name is basically because i looked like a builder who was building the new 6th form. That doesnt mean i wasn't a hellraiser in school though

i published a new piece on my running/depression blog last night http://www.therunningfella.wordpress.com/2012/11/30/technique-is-the-key-to-the-lock/

basically saying we need techniques and constant refinements to stay at our best in life.

Solb

30/11/2012 at 09:05

Wow Bricki that's a heck of a way to acquire perspective! I like the way it's translating (though I'm sorely tempted to respond in a dreadful German accent

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I quite like the origins of Bricki that's cute

I was never massively popular in school, I was a bit of an ugly duckling.

I have a meeting with Sally today (my CPN). I have no OCD progress to report. I have stopped the food wobble from undoing progress which is great but I didn't make any 'proper' meals, though I have the ingredients for two recipes, and I haven't moved any cup handles on the draining board from their military style uniform direction.

I'm going to ask Sally if we can swap breaking washing up rituals for trying to swim I just don't feel ready for washing up ... though if Sally feels it is a cop out I shall of course persevere *game face*

by 'eck, it's hilly

30/11/2012 at 09:24

3:43 today.
Sleep time soon.
Solb, could you play washing up with Solbsismini and her toys to get used to the idea before trying it on your adult stuff

Solb

30/11/2012 at 09:35

Ooo thats a brilliant idea by eck I hadn't thought of that. Definitely worth a shot mini would love the excuse to play with some water and I'm sure the tea set could do with a wash ... especially if we were planning a tea party with all the toys I might have to stretch to baking some tiny cakes and scones n stuff.

Bricki

30/11/2012 at 09:39

SOLB

Thank you - The german accent was very funny at the time (and awful)

its amazing how Bricki has stuck with me - everyone calls it me now.

by 'eck, it's hilly

30/11/2012 at 09:40

let me know how it goes. How old is mini? I have used play with the children to help me work on the stuff j found hard. Are there lots of rules surrounding washing up? ( PM me if you would prefer)

by 'eck, it's hilly

30/11/2012 at 09:46

Bricki, the audit team I worked for had an auditor out in Mumbai during that time too. I pulled many late nights trying to find him somewhere safe, get information on what was happening and keep his family updated. Fortunately he had lived in India and Pakistan for many years before coming back to England and was incredibly well looked after.
Your blog is very thought provoking, thank you

Solb

30/11/2012 at 09:48

Yes a ridiculous number it takes somewhere between 2 and 3 hours to wash up. No I don't mind being open here

Solbsismini is 4 (5 in April) and Solbsisminimini is 18 months

Solb

30/11/2012 at 10:37

Haha it has evolved, what better way to celebrate your 29th than to have a Mad Hatters tea party with the minis and their toys

XFR Bear

30/11/2012 at 13:27

Wish you were a year older SOLB, I found a perfect card!

by 'eck, it's hilly

30/11/2012 at 13:49

I thought you were older than me Solb

Ben-o

30/11/2012 at 14:09

2-3 hours SOLB? I'd just eat takeway with disposable items instead!

I'm all moved up now to Sheffield (yesterday was long and very tiring). Found out I've passed my thesis which is awesome but need to sort out printing and stuff while moving in and starting new job next week. I am really pleased about it but pretty nervous about starting someone new and meeting people and trying to at least appear competent to colleagues!

That's a good blog Bricki, I'm not sure if I took it as seriously as I might have without a German accent! Have you read brain training for runners by Matt Fitzgerald? It's all about running, but is good for making you think about how you run.

Bricki

30/11/2012 at 14:12

Ben-o

Ive not heard of that no, i will look it up. The german accent was brilliant at the time i must admit.

Lincoln Runner

30/11/2012 at 15:37

Well I did it and managed a run on my own. Just 31 minutes but that's more than I've managed on my own for a long time. Hopefully will create a bit of confidence to get out and build on that. Glad I live in an area where there's a couple of old quarry areas nearby. It means they're now pleasant parkland and lakes and they can't build yet more houses there. Makes a much nicer place to run.

by 'eck, it's hilly

30/11/2012 at 15:55

Well done LR. I haven't run for a couple of weeks. I want to get out and run but now I'm scared. I could have pushed myself to run today because moo is at nursery, but I needed sleep and,there was lots of housework to do. Little moo gets quite poorly over winter and I end up sacrificing myself to keel everything going. I don't want to do that this time. I might ask Mr by eck if I can do parkrun tomorrow ( assuming moo is,well)

Lincoln Runner

30/11/2012 at 16:03

I do find it can be more difficult the longer it is since I've been our running. Sometimes other commitments do have to take priority but I hope you can get out there tomorrow though. Sounds like you could benefit from it.

by 'eck, it's hilly

30/11/2012 at 22:18

Bedtime

Solb

30/11/2012 at 23:00

If I haven't run for a few days I always have this irrational but heavy fear that I can't do it.

Oh Ben-o huge huge congrats on the pass, I am so delighted for you. Glad the move has gone ok

when are you starting the new job?

Brilliant effort on the 31 LR I need to stop making excuses and just do it tomorrow

Weird session with the CPN she asked if I found us meeting helpful. I've said I feel like someone else would benefit more. We are going to talk about working differently or stopping if I still want to. She is talking to the psych too, apparently my ocd is quite severe. She was talking about taking a break from working on it. I don't mean that I just think I can do it on my own.

I feel really disturbed tonight

i should just go to bed but I don't want to think. I'm still very lonely too.

By eck I think you made a good call today, you must be exhausted

Lincoln Runner

30/11/2012 at 23:55

Go for it SOLB. You can make it a target to outdo me with 32 minutes. Must be a tough time for you though if you're not making progress. Sending lots of hugs. Hope it helps.

Solb

01/12/2012 at 00:10

I'll do that, 32 minutes it is

(I like a good challenge!)

The weird thing is I am making loads of progress it's just all a bit scattered and disorganised and not necessarily what we were supposed to be working on. Maybe I'm just trying to change too many things at once. I don't think I'm a particularly good patient for the CPN. I don't trust her so I always just say everything is fine, thats why I think someone else might benefit more

I sound like a grumpy little weirdo there, I am nice and I try hard too.

Thank you for the hugs, ALWAYS appreciated.

I think I've just fallen foul of the midnight rule for the third consecutive night. I must be more mindful of that, though luckily its easy to conquer (it's one of the rules I've already beaten)

I'd better go to bed I feel like I'll say something somehow shameful that I'll regret if I dont stop talking.

Glad tomorrow is a shiny new day, I've got lots I would like to achieve