Mental illness and running

I wanted a place where we could get advice and support.

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03/12/2012 at 16:26
It is the second one. It makes me very angry. Any hospital that left someone with a broken leg in physical pain because they were too busy, or laughed at a cancer patient whose hair had fallen out because of chemo would be hung out to dry
03/12/2012 at 16:38



Just found it on my news feed, I thought I was subscribed to Mind


Edited: 03/12/2012 at 16:42
03/12/2012 at 20:01
I'm not looking at the blog cos it'll make me sad and cross but sadly I'm pretty sure I can guess the contents!

I have fantastic news. I only have one more session with Vicky then I'm freeeeee. Vicky says there's another way of working against the OCD that's particularly helpful in people with a trauma background. She is going to have a chat with Sally to see what she thinks about adopting it moving forwards as both Sally and I feel I'm making progress but that our meetings aren't helpful at the moment.

I wanted my diagnosis formally changed (cos it's only been done internally and I'll be leaving the CMHT soon - woo hoo!) Vicky has said there are a few questions in the formal assessment that she feels would destabilise me too much. She is a specialist (head of profession) with 37 years experience in disociative disorders so she is going to write a discharge letter explaining the diagnosis and include an article about DID for my GP instead..if it's not too revealing I'll post it for you guys to read too

I've just done some scheming to help SOLBsis feel special tomorrow
03/12/2012 at 20:12

fabulous news


Ooooh I guess it's SOLBsis's buffday too

03/12/2012 at 20:41
Good evening - painting done for the evening so a shower is now in order
03/12/2012 at 20:44
Yep indeedy, twins have to be good at sharing!
Ooo congrats Bricki - sounds like you've been really productive today.

I am going to re-attempt swimming now. I'm hoping not to burst into tears and run away like a total pillock today!
03/12/2012 at 21:06

Good luck sweetie

03/12/2012 at 22:23
4 lengths, feel totally awful now and I suspect I'll be in the shower for ages but wow! I had to wear a paper wrist band, I'm being a sentimental idiot and keeping it
03/12/2012 at 22:28

03/12/2012 at 22:30



Why did you have to wear a wristband?

03/12/2012 at 23:45

Well done, SOLB.  You may feel awful but it's really impressive that you tried again and suceeded so soon after an unsuccesful attempt.  Happy birthday for you and SOLBsis tomorrow.  Great to hear that you've got good news going today.  Hopefully will help make it good one tomorrow.

I've been out this evening seeing The Damned.  Was in two minds about whether it was the right thing to do after a day at work.  I often need some 'me' time before facing another day but I'd promised a friend I'd be going.  Turned out OK..  When I see a band and they come on, I often think - this is going to be at least an hour and a half - how am i going to get through it - but whilst I didn't feel brilliant I at least felt I was OK to get through it.

04/12/2012 at 00:36
I don't know bear, so they know you've paid to swim I think. I still have it on, I might date it

That's brilliant Lr, having struggled so much with being with people last week what you achieved tonight is brilliant. So so glad it wasn't as bad as feared! wow that took some courage

I'm off to bed now, night night all x
04/12/2012 at 07:41

SOLB thats a great effort - very proud of you!

Well done LR - small steps and all that.

i went to a friends little ones christening on sunday and found it to be very difficult. i still feel uncomfortable around even my friends and the fact it was a load of kids when we are having such a terrible time of trying to have one hurts even more. i actually think im a magnet for kids as well as a lot of the younger ones seemed to want me to play with them a lot which i dont mind but is extremely tough to do.

04/12/2012 at 08:09

Bricki - I know what you mean.  I find it really difficult with kids.  On an occasion like that I try not to have anything to do with them if I can for fear that they will latch on to me and I can't cope.

Anyway - supposed to be going to work.  Don't want to.  Oh well, got to be done.

04/12/2012 at 12:01

Happy buffday SOLB

04/12/2012 at 22:12

Managed to get to the run tonight and I ran well.  The anti-d's seem to work to some extent - like with doing OK when out last night and running tonight when, even though I don't feel too well myself, the legs just seem to work well regardless.  In other ways I don't seem to do so well - concentration at work is a problem - but then it is still relatively early days.

Been doing some thinking - main reason I've not been concentrating as I should!  I've got two months until I see my GP again.  I find the thought of having to enter further into the world of mental health care pretty and opening up to total strangers face to face pretty terrifying - but if it's got to be done I'll have to do it.  It occurred to me though that I ought to use that time to identify any ways I can take positive action in the meantime.  Being open about things on this forum has made me think I really ought to be open to others too.  There are three areas here.  Family - I have strong reservations here - for reasons I might go into another time.  Work - similarly I am concerned that this might not be a good idea with the work environment I am in.  That leaves friends.  In this respect I am very fortunate in having plenty of friends through various activities but with only one or two exceptions I have kept my problems to myself.  One exception was when I 'came out' to one friend in the orienteering club who expressed concern when I wasn't taking part as I wasn't well.  I received such a supportive response and I'm sure that most others would be similarly supportive if only they knew.  So this is phase 1 of the plan.  I think I might have a chat with the friend I already 'came out' to as to how to go about it.  I think I'll probably go for an e-mail again.  I do believe in face to face conversation but sometimes I don't always express myself best, particularly if I'm nervous - and with an e-mail I can be sure I'm saying what I want.

I know this may sound a bit of contradiction in terms of being more open - but I am considering amending my hastily thought of ID name.  I have made what could have been the big mistake of accessing the forum pages from my work PC.  Won't be doing that again.  Will let you know if I do.

All of this has come about through me taking time to read past postings on this forum.  So thanks to SOLB for setting this up and being such an inspiration, and everyone else who is being so supportive.

05/12/2012 at 00:32

I amended my name after everyone abbreviated it anyway. wasn't a problem at all, let us know we're still talking to our Lr and we'll all be pretty happy. 

Re: kids you all know how much I adore SOLBsis's minis but I have only just started being their SOLB again after about 18 months of finding it really, really hard and only seeing them when I really needed to. It does get easier when you get better though you can't imagine it at the time. Suddenly you are just having fun and not struggling to keep the mask up any longer. 

I imagine it must be much, much harder if you are trying to have a baby and have been unsuccessful. There are quite a few people on our thread, lurking and chatting who can identify so please don't feel like you are all alone. I think it's a particularly difficult subject to talk about but you will have people understanding even if they aren't in a position to publically offer their support at the moment

Re 'coming out' with mental health problems. My fundraising page (written about 18 months ago now) which is linked in the first post if you're interested was my very first experience of talking about my mental health problems openly. No one at work or outside of my immediate family knew I was so ill and they certainly didn't know I hallucinated and stuff. It was an incredible experience for me. A few people ran away screaming (lost a few Facebook friends) but I gained far more respect, support and encouragement from the most unlikely people. I also heard so many other people say they felt they could talk about their own problems knowing I had. That said I did it knowing I was leaving the job. If that hadn't been the case I would probably have limited my disclosure to friends rather than all colleagues at first. 

My life is completely different for being honest. I still love being able to answer 'how are you?' with the truth sometimes. The friends I have now are so so real and I'm much, much closer to them for having risked their rejection. I think if you are ready to talk to people then it can be wonderfully empowering but bear in mind that sometimes the person you thought would be most supportive might not be. 

I am so happy that we all talk here  

05/12/2012 at 00:35

Oh and I've had a fantastic day today, just really, really enjoying feeling well and so cared about. 

Tired now but I have lovely clean sheets to fall into  

Night all x

05/12/2012 at 00:37

That's good to hear.  You deserve it.

05/12/2012 at 08:09

Good Morning (particularly to LR and SOLB)

Good luck LR it sounds like a plan and very similar to how ive had to approach things. i'm currently having to deal with my sister suffering some mental health issues, it seems its a family trait.

decided i really need my front room back asap so last night i gave all the walls a 2nd coat of paint. i can tell im feeling good because i have no confidence with 'DIY' but ive ploughed on with these walls.

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