Mental illness and running

I just went to the kitchen to get some water and accidentally came out with chocolate buttons instead 

Aha - so it is you that's eating the chocolate.  I have chocolate too!  Oh wait, I left it unattended!

*pacmans through the thread* 

My chocolate is safe - but probably would be safer in my tummy.  Can't be too careful.

I threw all the left over cakes n stuff out except the cake my mum & dad gave me. Might be brave and take some over to my nice neighbour ... I don't want to waste it and she invited me in for coffee in the summer and I still haven't reciprocated

Go for it.  The cake certainly provides the perfect reason to call round.

ooooh cake

Now then Bear, hands off.  It's for SOLB to take to her nice neighbour.

i cannot wait until end of this month when i return to running - sparodic running all year - until october - when i had an op -

i miss it all badly, it keeps me sane - almost controls my life - consultant has asked me to wait until end December then - build back to FM

I think so, I have a roll of carpet that I'm not using (it's under the bed, spare from when I covered the asbestos tiles in my flat) she mentioned way back then that she is having to use a different colour to fill in a missing segment at her house and I think mine is the correct colour - I keep wanting to offer it to her but being too worried about having to talk

Xpost ... plenty of cake left it's HUGE considering I live alone!  

Oh by eck that's rubbish sweetheart, I'm not very good at using coping strategies after flashback but I am sending you lots of love.

Sorry to hear that, not being able to run is really, really hard. Hope the op proves to be successful.  

Big hugs for By Eck (((((By Eck))).  SOLB can you send the sleep fairy round to By Eck before coming round my way.

I seem to have taken a chatterbox pill today.  Hey SOLB that's what you need - works a treat!

Mick - hi, don't think we've 'spoken',  Keep ticking off the days.  It'll be something to welcome the new year for.

Hello Lincoln runner

how are u, i dont know u ? - hope ure happy and well

i'm extremley frustrated now - i'll actually cherish it tbh - Coventry 5 on Sunday December 30 - ( its a 3 lapper ) will kick it off, though i expect as in previous years, we'll do a warm up lap and post race lap  

Ok good plan, I don't know why I've stayed up given that I didn't sleep at all last night. I was determined not to go to bed during the day that's just sensible but staying up until now seems silly ... I wonder if I'm waiting until midnight after all. I felt like I needed to watch that rule sneaking back in a couple of weeks ago and it looks like it may be so I'm going to sign off and go to bed. It's a silly pointless rule and nothing has happened in the last few months without it. 

*goes to bed with a boot on to give the sleep fairy some gentle encouragement to visit her friends!* 

night x  

Evening. Can I join in with you lovely people? I've lurked for a bit but not felt ready to jump in before, but as you are now talking about cake I can't resist. Lovely to hear how well SOLB is doing.

I've struggled with depression for the last year, had my ups and downs and currenty on a well streak. Had a couple of difficult days at work last week but thats picking up a bit now thankfully. Running has been my saviour and I've finally negotiated an extended lunch break at work so that I can go for a lunch time run or swim. It really clears my head and gets me through the week. I'm still learning how to cope with the dips when they come but on the positive I've come to terms with the fact that I'm on a roller coaster ride that I just have to deal with.  No point pretending otherwise any more. 

Can't help on flashbacks, that sounds really sh*t so (((hugs to by eck))) 

Hope everyone else is coping this weekend. 

Mick - thanks, I'm finding plenty of encouragement on here.  I find running can be very beneficial but due to depression and anxiety it can be very difficult to get out there.  That won't be the case tomorrow though.

Anyway, the sleep fairy will be getting round here soon so I'd better get off.

Night all.

Hi Soupy and Mick
*waves*
Good, but not good to see you in here, if you know what I mean?  

yeh, i know what you mean

u suprised that i suffer depression and mental health ???

of course i do - my sons disability and my wifes poor health have driven me at times out of my mind

GP says i handle things so well - one cos i run to keep fit- and cos i accept whats wrong