Mental illness and running - Page 18 - Health + Injury

Solb

24/04/2012 at 22:50

Ha ha by eck, please tell me that's not gonna happen - I have no desire to get better acquainted with the stringy old teacher ladies bottom whether tooting or otherwise!

Thanks Ben-o

by 'eck, it's hilly

25/04/2012 at 08:59

Have you been before?

Solb

25/04/2012 at 09:05

Yes went to the first session then missed the next 4 ... back today under duress. Eeek better head off actually.
Hope today is a good one everyone xxx

Ben-o

25/04/2012 at 18:15

How was the yoga SOLB?

Hope everyone had a good day.

by 'eck, it's hilly

25/04/2012 at 18:20

Hi Ben-o off to see my therapist tonight. I didn't go 2 weeks ago cos Moo was poorly. I probably should stay with him tonight cos he is sick again but it's been ages since I saw her.
How was yoga SOLB?

Solb

25/04/2012 at 18:31

Ooo good luck by 'eck, you need to look after yourself too - must be difficult finding the right balance between looking after poorly Moo and making sure you're not too poorly to be the best Mummy you can. Hope little Moo feels better soon.
Do you struggle to talk to your therapist after a break? I lose the rapport if I've missed a few weeks and then waste half the next session not really talking. I've never heard of anyone else doing it but I can't help it.

Ben-o can I turn the right way round now? (Actually I didn't go to yoga - couldn't face it)

I went to town and had tea with a friend, was nice but I feel really burned out now.

I haven't worked out the balance between putting on a coping with life type facade and being real. It's tiring and I don't feel quite right. I want to be me but I don't want to drown in the carp bits. Maybe it'll settle but I feel like I'm missing the groove a bit.

I'm sleepy *curls up in the corner and snores softly*

Edited: 25/04/2012 at 18:34

Ben-o

25/04/2012 at 20:29

You do indeed need to look after yourself, By Eck. It's like they say on airplanes, put your oxygen mask on yourself then your child's. Or as I once heard in Home and Away, you can't save someone from drowning if you can't swim yourself.

I can't swim. Honestly, not even a length.

I want to say it's important to "just be". And in theory, I'm saying that. But I know what you mean SOLB. There's a kid's book written by Michael Rosen (I think) after his child (possibly) died, and at the front is an illustration of him smiling. And the caption is "This is me when I'm dying inside". (I think, or it's really upset or something) Sometimes trying to survive is all you can do and if it means putting on a facade to get through the day then that's what it takes. One day, you will be able to be genuine and not get overwhelmed but it's about knowing how much you can take.

Right, I've got to get back to work!

Solb

25/04/2012 at 23:12

Finished working Ben-o? Not long til we get to have the 'all finished' virtual party (while you snore in the corner) the virtual champagne is chilling as we speak

I got a text today from the guy I saw yesterday, he apologised - said it was just a joke but that he'd missed the mark ... not sure if that's the case but life is way too short for grudges and sorry is still sorry.

I really am off to bed now (have been saying that for about 3 hours) please would you administer a huge kick up the bum if I am faffing about tomorrow I have loads to do & the laziness is getting boring?

Hope everyone manages to get some sleep & you feel OK about this evening by 'eck

Lots of love xxx

Ben-o

25/04/2012 at 23:25

Not finished working. Am panicking a bit, but hopefully I'll sort something out somehow? I've still got 24 hours or so.

SOLB, you're a better person than me for not holding a grudge. I never forgive but I do forget.

Ok, I've got loads to do tomorrow so one of those things shall be kicking you (virtually) until you do stuff.

Hope all's well By Eck.

Solb

25/04/2012 at 23:29

I'll pop in tomorrow to remind you to breathe Ben-o ... will be thinking of you frantically finishing tomorrow - sure you'll make it (Will get the virtual pom poms out to cheer you on if you're flagging - though perhaps coffee would be more useful)

x

Ben-o

25/04/2012 at 23:37

Thanks for your thoughts SOLB.

Hopefully I'll just be doing the final touches tomorrow (formatting and such). I need to focus tonight though. Come on boy, be a winner! Go hard or go home! (and other cliches)

Solb

25/04/2012 at 23:45

Take care Ben-o, hope you get some sleep x

by 'eck, it's hilly

26/04/2012 at 08:38

*walks in quietly, opens the curtains and puts some tea and toast next to Ben-o, who nodded off on his computer desk, and SOLB in her nest*

Solb

26/04/2012 at 08:54

*rubs eyes and sleepily mumbles her thanks*

You ok this morning by 'eck?
Hope you are almost done Ben-o

by 'eck, it's hilly

26/04/2012 at 08:58

Waiting to book a dentist appointment. I have a bad tooth and I know it needs to have been sorted years ago hut I am petrified of dentists

by 'eck, it's hilly

26/04/2012 at 09:00

What's your plan for today SOLB? Moo and I are going for a bimble in town. Fancy joining us for a virtual coffee?

Solb

26/04/2012 at 09:14

Oo sounds perfect by 'eck

I have someone coming to stay this weekend I'm nervous I've never had anyone stay over before cos they'll break all the OCD rules. I need to get rid of the old furniture that's in the spare room + wash all the sheets etc. Want to finish painting the bathroom and touch ups elsewhere and I need to return some stuff to my parents.
I have an appointment today but I don't remember what for, where or when - I haven't put my calendar back up since the move in Feb and its getting me into trouble!
Must get food and stuff in for my guest.
I am also ordering my cooker

I got a 300 tax rebate so have enough money for the one I really liked but don't know if I can justify spending so much on it when I'm usually so skint ... be interesting to see whether my head or heart win at the checkout

I'm missing SOLBsis but dont have time to go & play ... MUST.DO.HOUSEWORK.MUST.DO.HOUSEWORK.MUST DO HOUSEWORK and virtual coffee + cake

Solb

26/04/2012 at 09:17

I went to the dentist on Tuesday its not like I remember - not ouchy or scary. Dentist was just chatty and normal no authoritarian ogre in a white coat. Hope your trip goes OK too

by 'eck, it's hilly

26/04/2012 at 09:29

They won't give me an emergency appointment until I've registered and they might not accept me at all cos I have a bleeding problem.
Tell your guest the rules, and work out 2 areas you can compromise on. Not sure how your ocd manifests itself, but you might allow them to take the cutlery through, or wash up.
Only you can decide about the oven.

Ben-o

26/04/2012 at 09:34

Morning!

Thanks for the tea and toast By Eck, I need it big time. I'm not nearly done, but I have 24 hours though and it will it all get done. It will.

I hope the dentist goes well By Eck. I visited a GP a few years ago and he introduced himself by his first name and was not very traditional. I found it very weird and kept wondering if it was an imposter!

It sounds like you have everything to do SOLB. Hope you figure out what the appointment is for. That's good news about the cooker. If you're intending to live at your flat for some years, then a decent cooker is a sound financial investment.

Enjoy the virtual coffee and cake!