Mental illness and running

ohh thats sad -

i'm al alone as well -

where are you at hilly? Must be oop North somewhere I'd guess. I'm a northener really, going there next weekend. 

*runs into the thread and bounces on everyone's beds*

aAh come on Bear, you know some of us are having trouble sleeping!  I'd just got off then.

Morning

Sorry I went AWOL, had an asthma attack after attempting a run yesterday have got an appointment booked with the doc next Monday though and I've turned the heating up a bit which should help with the damp and mould. 

Really weird horrible session with Vicky, am all a bit upside down and freaked out. Vicky asked me to do something which accidentally tripped a blank off 

Oh and she recommended this book 8 Keys to Safe Trauma Recovery she said it's really brilliant and read out a passage. She wants me to work on those principles once I've discharged myself. Has anyone else come across it?  

That was my last session  though I'll see her again next week as I'm having a meeting with her and Sally - Vicky let slip that Sally isn't allowed to do any more OCD work with me anyway because of the issue with catchment areas so I'll have to keep doing that bit on my own. 

!!

Vicky was adament that I need to get it, She has never recommended a book before and I really, really trust her judgement.(She's head of profession and has been specialising in treating people with severe trauma reactions for 37 years) I've just ordered a copy, I could scan a few pages in for you to have a look at when it arrives if you like 

Aw bad news on the asthma Solb. If its really cold outside when I run I wear a buff and start off with it covering my mouth to warm the air a bit till I get warmed up or I end up wheezing. Warmth is certainly a good option.

The book looks interesting and no you are not on your own. 

Im on my second course of CBT. The first was stopped because of funding being withdrawn on the NHS (grrrrrrrr) so now I'm doing a computerised one Beating the Blues. Got the 7th out of 8 sessions to do tonight and its been really good. It comes with 24/7 telephone support which I find really useful cos instead of waiting for the next session I just pick up the phone when I'm struggling with something. 

Have a lovely evening everyone.

I got given a Buff for my birthday cos I wanted to try that then stupidly forgot it 

Aww I like the not being on my own bit  

Oh that must have been tough Soupy, stopping a course of treatment half way through is difficult to adjust to. It must be a bit like taking your goggles off after you've been stirring up the mud underwater. 

Beating the Blues looks interesting, who answers the phone. Is it like a duty number or do you have key people who will call you back? 

So glad the course is going well  

Hi SOLB - big hugs - ((((SOLB))) - with you all the way.  Hope you can keep warm - it's going to be a chilly few days.

I did my old 'sleep better, feel worse' trick.  OK - I was lying to Bear for - hopefully -witty response effect - when I said I'd only just nodded off earlier.  Felt really rough in the morning so it's been a struggle at work.  As usual though, felt a bit better as the day's gone on.  Glad to be back home though.  Got to get ready for having friends round tomorrow night though.  Could just do with crashing out - musn't though.  Must stop ending sentances with though.  Oh, I've done it again!

I'm warmer now ... going to bed in a minute, am very short of sleep and everything I touch is going wrong today. 

I'm glad that you've felt better as the day has progressed though  

Mornings are worse for me LR. Whether I've slept or not. I've started singing to myself on my way into work to block all the negative thoughts that chatter to me. This moring was Its a Wonderful World.  Are you having a meal with friends tomorrow?

Solb - I have my own caseworker who phones me every couple of sessions and she tells me the times that she works if I want to phone her at other times. But to be honest I've found everyone really helpful, in fact one girl is more help than my allocated support worker so I tend to phone her. But yes, stopping the therapy half way through was hard because I'd got a really good rapport with my therapist. But its all working out okay thankfully.

I say but too much .

I love the thought of singing to yourself to block that negative chatter. 

It sounds really helpful, I think it's amazing when everything just starts to come together. Long old fight mental illness it looks so bleak and hopeless for so long then suddenly something just shifts beneath you 

I'm so sleepy I can't think. Am going to bed with a book and some tea 

Night night all x

Great idea SD.  I always listen to music on the way to work - but I need to follow your example in terms of my choice of tunes - singing along with The Damned's 'I just can't be happy today' is not really going about it the right way.  Really ought to get the Joey Ramone version of 'What a wonderful world' downloaded as a better choice.

I also find mornings worse regardless of how well I've slept - just that having slept well seems to be worse for some reason.

Morning all.  How is everyone?

Time to get my act together and drag myself in again.  Can I find some cheerful music on CD though - I reckon the Saw Doctors will do the trick.

Feeling a bit rough again - but slight improvement on yesterday.