Mental illness and running

Oh well, got to get moving again.  Woke up with my face aching again.  Hope it improves.

helloooo

But I take it it could have been better as well?

I've felt a bit better today but still felt a long day with concentration and motivation still low.  Got to clear up stuff from last nights visit now.

Hellooo Mick.

Sorry to hear that.  These sort of things can be very hard to bounce back from but I guess you've got to put it down to a bad day and hope for a better one tomorrow.  Got my Christmas lunch on Friday.  I am usually OK with that - but I'm thinking I shouldn't be saying that and tempting fate.

waves to Mick

(((((Bricki)))))

My days been mixed. Started off totally crap and it took me everything I'd learned in CBT to stop me crying. My therapy homework this week is to identify something I've done successfully every day, and then acknowledge my own skills in achieving it. Great theory, but I still can't think of a success that I can claim credit for. 

But on the plus side, after months of being bullied relentlessly at work by small minded colleagues who think depression is a weakness to be ridiculed, my work is moving me to a different department. I've been complaining for months and now its happening I could cry with relief. Its full time so no more Tuesdays off but at least I'll get a bit more money and its got to be better than what I'm putting up with now. I suppose thats a success, but I don't know how I can say what I'm good at particularly that made it happen. 

Still no word from SOLB? Does anyone have her number?

I would say it means that you're valued enough to be moved to another department so over the course of time you've proved your worth if not today.

Let me at those horrible colleagues of yours for a bit of LR violence therapy.  Well it would be therapy for me anyway!

I think we're all getting concerned about SOLB.  Hope she's OK.

I got the impression that she is busy too

Glad to hear Solb is well and busy. 

Thanks for the suggestion LR. I've decided that I have resilience and determination as my daily success point. I don't know if I'm being moved for a short time or permanent yet as they are carrying out a formal investigation into the behavior of my delightful colleagues. In my new job I'm not telling anyone. My present ones know cos I broke down at work which was very embarrassing and I've had nearly 5 months off work. I thought attitudes to mental heath were better these days, but it seems not. Its taken a tribunal claim to get my employer to act - and we are talking about NHS! My claim is on hold to give them opportunity to sort it. Suing the NHS isn't my prefered option. 

Good to hear SOLB's OK. 

Frodo's been quiet as well - how's it going Frodo?

SD - really hope things work out for you at work.  It must really feel like the world's against you when both management and colleagues attitudes are a problem.

Hi Malc.  Well done on finding the courage to post. 

I've found really useful for support.  I think even if you have any friends  to talk to, it's still beneficial to communicate with people with similar problems of their own as you will hopefully find they understand and, in some cases, have been there themselves.

Sorry to hear things have gone so much downhill for you.  Motivation is very difficult.  I'm all for doing more of what we did last sunday when several of us got each other out for a run after posting on here.  In my case, I certainly wouldn't have got out otherwise.  So if you're wanting a push to get out anytime just ask.

Hi Malc. Well done on joining in. Took me a while too. Ditto what LR says. 

I cant sleep so got up for a Redbush tea. 

Morning Friends

feeling slightly blue this morning but think this is more to do with the chill in the air.

hope all are well. xx

Morning

Felt really rough about an hour ago and thought I really would struggle to get into work today.  Improving at the moment so, thanks to flexitime, a later start will be managable.  I'm sure lack of sleep is going to catch up with me though.  Just got to make it to the weekend.  Half day tomorrow.

I can't really complain about the cold.  I've only got to make it out to the car.  To think - I used to cycle in this weather.  Haven't touched the bike in over a year now.

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Frodo's been quiet as well - how's it going Frodo?

*waves*

I am here and still lurking - busy at work and had a bit of a wobble last week/weekend, so just keeping my head down and trying to get through to the Christmas break