Mental illness and running

I wanted a place where we could get advice and support.

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16/12/2012 at 15:44
I'm sure the mini's would love to help you create some decorations. Handprints on cards can be turned into doves ( and jellyfish if you so choose)
16/12/2012 at 16:08
I was quite cross with myself for letting the shyness win, yesterday; I positioned myself by the door and next to someone else's dogs so I had both a distraction and exit planned
At the other end of the table were people I've met before and regularly chat to, and yet I couldn't bring myself to take myself over to talk to them. Pathetic, really.
I just hope no one thinks I was being rude or feel snubbed

To break the guilt cycle today, I threw myself into some DIY and gardening - demolished our old shed (new one arrives tomorrow), dug up shrubs and laid new slabs ready for the bigger one. Sore but satisfied, now
16/12/2012 at 16:58

Frodo, these situations can be difficult at times.  It's not pathetic just at times it can be too much to face up to.  After all, they could have come over and spoken to you.  It's something I often feel awkward about when I'm out.  I'd rather just sit where I am and feel awkward about going over to anyone else that I know.  When I'm not on top of my game it's just so difficult to open a conversation.  Also people are always in the middle of another conversation so I always thing what if I go over there have no idea what they're talking about and can't work my way in.  I'd feel such an idiot.  These things aren't easy even if some people make them look easy so don't beat yourself up over it.

I am glad that you mentioned the new shed was arriving tomorrow though, otherwise I would thought the old one had been destroyed in frustration!

I see SOLB's name has received some festive decoration!

16/12/2012 at 17:06
The use of festive names is an old RW tradition

Thanks for the kind words, LR. I just get so frustrated - there is a Frodo that isn't anxious in social situations, but I seem to have lost her somewhere.
16/12/2012 at 17:17

Hugs called for methinks (((((Frodo)))).

I find that my self-confidence feels at rock bottom at the moment.  It really takes a lot of getting back but it's something that I think we just have to believe can be regained and keep working towards it.

16/12/2012 at 17:20
16/12/2012 at 17:25
I can't change my name cos I use a mobile and it gets confused.
16/12/2012 at 19:36

Oooh it's even changed the name on an old post

16/12/2012 at 19:55
I know what I would change mine to...
16/12/2012 at 19:57
Lincoln Rudolf thank you; I'm a bit overwhelmed I genuinely don't have the words to reply to that. Wow

Frodo you didn't look too anxious, you were your usual radiant self ... plus we had a fab hug

I have counted a few more positives. I told you guys the truth about some of my history when I'm usually very very reticent about it. I managed at the pub. I ate an apple back at the hosts house even though there were people there. I drove for 9 hours on my own without dissociating and my favourite that wouldnt have been possible a year ago I hugged everyone (and really meant it) I never thought I'd put that much trust in anyone let alone a whole group

I really really believe the missing self confidences can be restored. I can't not when I think about how much I've changed in the last year. Keep fighting, we'll all get there

I'm loving the Christmas names, it's really cheered me up
16/12/2012 at 19:59
? By eck?
16/12/2012 at 20:00

SOLB, you didn't seem at all nervous in the pub but *stern Paddington stare* you should have said something then you would have got an extra special hug.

Mick, yes we met at Mudchute.  I was with Bear at the time, which may help you remember which one he is.  We have also met at Stratford marathon last year, when it was cut down to a half.

16/12/2012 at 20:03
Runs over to SOLB to collect one of her famous hugs. Solb, that is absolutely amazing. Write it on a post it and stick them on your fridge. Hunny, that is so wonderful
16/12/2012 at 20:13

My guess for your name change is - by deck the halls it's holly.

16/12/2012 at 20:29
No, surprisingly. I hadn't thought of that
16/12/2012 at 20:41

Evening. I've just got back from a couple of days with my Mum and Sister. 

Solb - so proud and got ooodles of respect for you for going into that pub and for opening up on your experiences here. What a fantastic achievement. 

I'll read back further in a while but just had to respond to SOLB straight away. Pure gold that. 

16/12/2012 at 20:44
16/12/2012 at 21:03

Ahh it's not as easy to say as to write SCaz - I don't think I've ever managed to say it straight off, though I can talk about it once someone already knows sometimes.

Aww by eck, you can have some virtual hugs now and I'll save some special it's so good to finally meet you ones for when we do eventually get together

Good guess Lincoln Rudolph ... I'm super curious about the name change now!!

Awww Turkey Soup Dragon (the name made me laugh.) How was it with your family?

Thank you so much for your support. I'm glad I did; both sticking it out in the pub and telling you about the trauma things

16/12/2012 at 21:03

TSD - I assume you're back at work tomorrow.  If so will be thinking of you and hope you get on OK.

Getting a bit nervous of facing another week myself - but hopefully I'm set for a better one than last week.

16/12/2012 at 21:06

Is there anything positive planned into your week Rudolph? Maybe we can help to cheerlead you to reach it  

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