Mental illness and running

I wanted a place where we could get advice and support.

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03/01/2013 at 09:06
Thanks by eck, what a star
03/01/2013 at 09:16
You ok?
I'm battling a cold
03/01/2013 at 09:31
I'm battling
Oh rubbish to the cold (((by eck))) *fusses tucking by eck in and gives her a kiss on the forehead - just to check her temperature of course*
03/01/2013 at 09:32
Moo wants his kiss and cuddle too. He likes kisses and cuddles. We're watching annoying kids t.v., miss by eck is in a bit of a huff
03/01/2013 at 09:43
*kisses Moo and Miss by Eck* whats up with Little Miss or is it just end of the holidays restlessness?
03/01/2013 at 11:33

hello my darlings...gosh its been a while since I've been in here. Christmas was lovely, a couple of meltdowns and the OCD might have been a bit of an unwelcome houseguest but for the most part I was ok. I have my next shrink session on 9th and my CMHT letter has arrived to confirm I am on the CBT Stage 3 waiting list so I am in the SYSTEM. Phew.

My meds seem to be stabilising me and I'm sort of working out my triggers for OCD to start misbehaving. Today is a classic case. Sat down, there are things that have to be done according to 'mad me' but I'm fighting it. Mainly because I'm in pain and what needs doing is going to hurt but also because I'm trying to challenge myself and change why/how/when I do things. I'll see how long I last though...makes me very twitchy.

PHEW! That feels better....talking about it. wow....

03/01/2013 at 11:49

Hey duck  

I don't think there are any other magic techniques for OCD - it seems to just be tolerate it and try not to completely lose your sh*t and have to start again and if you can do that enough times you'll start thinking just half of the world will end instead of the whole one and eventually no world ending at all* 

*not quite sure that's how my CPN would put it

Glad the rest of life is still good  

03/01/2013 at 12:26

I lasted all of 30 mins...then I had to do the laundry, and the dishwasher. Feel much better now. Even though it hurt. SOLB, you always makes it make sense....that is exactly what I'm trying to do...not lose it totally and let all the "bad" thoughts take over.



03/01/2013 at 12:37

I think a really big change for me was accepting that I shouldn't try to fight all of them at the same time but take one thing at a time. It makes it easier cos you're not overloaded but it's more than that. It meant that all the other rituals and stuff that I was still doing had become a choice. I had chosen to focus on something else and so to keep doing the thing I felt compelled to do but I didn't 'have' to in the same sense - if I'd wanted I could drop the thing I was working on and tackle the other instead. 
I promise it really does get easier but it's almost impossible when you are trying to carry the weight of not doing any of the rituals or giving in to any of the compulsions all at the same time ...... waaaaaaaay too heavy ducky! It's inevitable you're going to drop it when you're so overloaded, even people without OCD would cave if they tried to do ignore all the things that bothered them all at the same time and not to fix it if they knew how.

Lasting 30 minutes is still a win. That's where I had to start. Tolerate it for 5 mins before following the rules, cos learning that nothing bad happens in the 5 minutes (or 30 in your case - wow ) is the first step.  

03/01/2013 at 14:31
Hi mimaduck. Sending you hugs. Ocd is a horrible thing. It takes over your thought processes. I've been battling my own version of it. Sadly, it revolves around moo's eating, which is not something I can control so it comes out in other ways.
03/01/2013 at 16:00

Hello by 'eck. I am lucky in that I have T who is a rock - he helps challenge my behaviours without making me stress out or lose the plot. And when I do stress out and end up giving in, he understands why I'm doing it.

Hope you and Moo and little Miss are doing ok xx

03/01/2013 at 17:25

Hi guys!  I ran out of time to pop in last night.  I had a health MOT which was generally good, but instead of focusing on the things that came up green she has to lecture me about the one in red - obesity.  Those that have met me know that I'm not very over weight and I need a bit of body fat to withstand the cold water swimming.

Also had therapy.  I'm not realdy to talk about it yet, but it was positive and we are having a few weeks off while I sort things out.

03/01/2013 at 18:26

Hi, mimaduck, don't think we've 'spoken' before.

I've had one positive sign.  It has been on my mind a lot that a big part of my problems is with not being able to be the same way in real life as I am on this forum.  I find it so much easier on a forum to think about things and come up with, hopefully, a constructive and helpful response.  One of my other activities that I don't think I've mentioned is a weekly game of five a side football.  Last night one of our guys injured his wrist making a save in goal.  He felt OK to carry on outfield though.  At the end, I went up to him and asked him if it was OK and checked if he was OK to drive himself home.  I thought nothing more of it at the time but later it occurred to me that this was just the sort of thing I tend not to do but later think I ought to have done.  A mixture of depression, anxiety and shyness keeps me caught up in my own problems.  Then when I fail to act in the way I would have wished, that makes me more depressed.  What was particularly encouraging was that I wasn't even thinking I ought to make a point of doing it - it just happened.  I think 'the real me' just made an unexpected and rare guest appearance.

03/01/2013 at 19:55

Evening. I've just got home after a long journey so lovely to see the hugs blanket laid out with various goodies. By eck you are a star.  I've had a really lovely time away thanks, and enjoyed my swim this morning. I didn't want to get out of bed but so glad I made the effort when I saw the dawn rising over Whitby Abbey - awsome. I had the pool to myself too so it was bliss. 

Hi Mimiduck, sorry you are struggling but well done on the 30mins. 

Solb - I love the Sane link, thanks. It has the Black Dog illustrations too and I was looking at that book this week which just summed things up so perfectly.I nearly bought it to help explain to someone what its like. 

I'm thinking about a run tomorrow morning. 30mins round my local park. Shall we have a group run? 

03/01/2013 at 20:16
I've averted a bit of a mental health crisis tonight (not a secret I just don't have the energy to explain. Am scared but only in retrospect its all fine now and I'm wobbly smiling.

I ran just over a mile today - my lungs were burning and I had to quit cos I was on the brink of an attack but given that I was scared, it was cold and the first in months its encouraging. Definitely in for a group run tomorrow

Woo hoo to positive therapy session SCaz even if they are still exhausting sometimes.

LR I just grinned and grinned reading your account. So happy to hear 'real you' has popped up from beneath the depression and anxiety. You did brilliantly and its no wonder you feel so encouraged.

Glad you swam Soupy sounds incredible. I like the Sane illustrations too. They also ran the 'send a text save a life' campaign which I thought was amazing. Reminding people they can help by just showing they care instead of being so crippled by not knowing what to say or not being able to fix it that the suicidal person ends up more isolated.

I saw a Ruby Wax postcard that said 'There are no Get Well Soon cards in mental illness.' It's so true (in my experience at least)
03/01/2013 at 20:23 rock. That is all. xxxxx

03/01/2013 at 20:54

That made me do this ---   
Thank you ducky  

03/01/2013 at 21:05
Huge hugs to everyone
I have decided to ask for more help with moo's eating from yhe dietician.
03/01/2013 at 21:11

Sounds sensible by eck, some guidance or even just reassurance can't do any harm and you're more than entitled to ask for the help 

03/01/2013 at 21:51
We're at the point of taking it up another step in terms of supplements. I just can't get the calories in him
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