Mental illness and running

Night, SOLB.  Saying 'Yah boo, sucks' to the midnight rule tonight by the looks of it.  I'm impressed.

Used to be with Lakeside, should maybe update my profile!

Oh, right.  I was being extra devious and looking at results from a certain race you did about a year ago.  I was entered for the same race - but wrote it on my calendar as Sunday instead of Saturday.  Not suprisingly when I turned up there was no-one there.  My postings today are giving the impression that I'll come up with any excuse not to run - as in my 'Please sir, I can't do orienteering today.  I left my kit in the Lake District' that I mentioned earlier.

Got to drag myself out there again.  Whilst I've been feeling better this week, I've had that feeling that, even a temporary setback would be quite tough to deal with.  As it is, I've got to look at it as - it's the wrong end of Friday, just got to push on with the day and look forward to the right end.

Have taken positive action though, have sent a message to the run leader last night about what happened and asked for it to be passed onto other run leaders in the club as I think it would make things easier for me there if others are aware of my situation.  Obviously, as it proved last night - one person already is!

*sends Paddington stares to the receptionist*

For once I don't have anything to say, but I'm still here handing out hugs

Good you hear you got sorted Mr F.  Quiet day on here for once.  Not so for me, really hectic at work.  That suits my mood just fine, just that in current state it is very tiring so I'm ready to take it easy.  I've been sensible and have turned down an orienteering event tomorrow.  Got a really nice message back from last night's run leader who welcomed my explanation as she was concerned about me.

Hi all,

Sorry I've not posted in ages, I've now got the internet after moving house. Seriously, how do people live without it? It's so useful!

Hi Mr F, a book sounds good.

I get anxious over small things too, sometimes I can't even tell why. I'm more anxious than usual as I've started a new job.

Hope everyone's good.

Hi Ben-o, glad you've got the internet sorted.  Getting quite a good gathering on here so it's good to be able to add another former regular to that.  My laptop screen display is gradually going on the blink.  I constantly hold off getting anything done about it because I don't want to be without it. 

Good luck with the new job.  Hope you've had chance to catch up with SOLB's impressive recent progress which we're all really pleased about.

Sounds a lovely gp you have there mr f.  Remind me never to cross Caz - I don't want one of those stares. 

I didn't do my lunch time run and sat in the canteen with fish and chips instead.  Regret it now and might have to run round the park tomorrow morning instead. Anyone got any pom poms to hand? 

Then I had a panic attack this afternoon and still quite on edge now. I've had an email telling me about a meeting next Thursday to feed back on my greivance at work. I didn't expect anything just yet and I went into hyperventilating and immediateldy started worrying that it isn't going to be upheld and I'm not believed and that I might have to go back etc etc. I've gone through the CBT stuff and identified that I'm jumping to conclusions and catastrophising with is a thinking error. Another way of looking at it is, I decided, that it might be in my favour or might not be so there is no point in getting contingency plans together till I know more. Does that make me feel better?  A little bit but the tiger still looks fierce and snarling rather than paper. *takes deep, calm breaths*

Sorry for rambling on. Happy Friday everyone, hope the weekend is good for you. 

Missed a few posts there.  Hi Ben-o.

Good news from the run leader LR. 

Thanks LR, I'm much the same with my driving licence. I need it all the time so can't send it away to update my address. Which in itself creates its own problems.

Sorry about the panic attack SD, they're horrible. I use CBT on myself too, I can't seem to control the anxiety at the time so much, I can understand it afterwards though. I suppose whether you get anxious or not, it will not affect the outcome. I'm not sure if that makes it any less scary, but I important meeting are scary, that's normal. I think I've talked myself into a circle.

Right, time to back track through some pages and catch up with SOLB's achievements...

Thanks Ben-o. Thats a good point about anxiety not influencing the outcome. Thanks. I forget its not what happens that makes me anxious and depressed but how I react to it. Easier said than done though. 

Hi, I wondered how others have got on with running and medication, I've just started vanlafaxine and am training for my first marathon in may. Thanks for any experiences.

Thanks, I've tried lots of different meds, and I've always had some side effects. Dry mouth usually gets me and either increased or decreased appetite. See how this goes hopefully I'll be able to keep up with the running.