Mental illness and running

You're welcome SD. I really like acceptance and mindfulness, though I'm not that good at it. Well, not with anxiety. Sometimes I think somethings are inherently stressful or anxiety-provoking, because they're important. I guess it's about managing/containing those anxious feelings so they don't feel out of control. I can talk the talk...

Panic relieving hugs for SD ((((Soup Dragon))))  I have special hugs for all occasions.

Advance orders are sounding good on the book, Mr F.  Just the small job of your writing it to be done.

Seth - I have only recently started on medication and am on citalopram.  In that time I have managed to get out running more - but that is more due to the wonderful support and encouragement that I've had on here than the medication.

Been quiet today, by 'Eck, which doesn't look the best of signs to me so ((((by 'eck))))

I'm fine, just been studying for my teaching Monday. All that and improv eeek! Expect a pooped bear on Tuesday

Its only Rock and Roll but I Like It.   I've found a great anxiety distraction. Just got back from seeing a Stones tribute band - Rollin Stoned. We were stood right at the front of the stage and I've danced and sang along till I'm hoarse and shattered. 19th Nervous Breakdown had special significance and I sang it very loudly. 

My running got better on Citalopram too. And when the side effects were at their worse running helped to clear that foggy head feeling. 

Hopeing things get better 'ecky.  

Night all - Its good to be happy. 

Just a taster from youtube

edit - video didn't work but this link might

Just got home - 5am til almost 1am = sleepy solby 

I'm loving the thread at the moment, it's such a warm, supportive and positive place to be. You guys are ace!

SD I'm blown away by how incredibly well you managed re CBTing yourself

By eck sorry things are tough

*sleepy hugs to everyone*

I've been somewhere pretty germy today and tolerated it much better than I normally do. I've also been reminded how incredible my friends are. There's so much strength and goodness and love in people - I wonder how I managed not to see it for so many years. I thought the world was such a dark, scary place but I was wrong.

Anyway I have a little faffing to do then I'm off to bed. Hopefully I'll sleep in a bit tomorrow I have managed to skive out of going up to SOLBtitchysis' house for the second weekend running which is good cos I really, really want to sort some stuff out ready to work towards a stronger routine. I feel like I'm ready for that. Time to seize control of my life again now that the crisis has passed.

Aiming for a run tomorrow - motivation will probably be a bit wobbly so pom poms would be much appreciated.

Night all xxx 

I'm up late watching darts.

Where on earth did you have to go so early Solb?

Sounds a bit dull bear!  - I'm just writing an email then I'm pottering off to bed  

Night xx

Night night 

*provides tea and a cuddle, then gets into bed with Solb*

Today is either going to be a good day or a bad day.  Although when I say bad it won't really be that bad.  More of a 'less bouncy than usual' day

I've just woke up! Late nights don't do me any good. 

Not sure about that run this morning, a short plod before breakfast might be a good idea but I'm tired. Anyone else running this morning.?

*tip toes out so not to wake Caz and Solb and leaves a fresh cup of tea*

I was in bed for 12 hours Soupy.  I didn't get much sleep the two nights before and needed to catch up.

My body is starting to respond to the lack of gluten in my diet.  Gums are bleeding a lot less and my minor cuts and bruises are starting to heal.  I think this is the reason why I'm needing so much sleep at the moment, plus the increase in training - my body is needing lots of energy and time to repair itself

SD - great to hear that it's alright now, in fact it's a gas.  Sounds like that covers band really came to your emotional rescue.  No run for me today - really tired out so being sensible for a change.

Hoping for the former option rather than the latter for your day today Caz.

Thinking of you, by 'Eck.

LR - *groan* - but very good. I don't want to paint it black anymore. 

You will have noticed that I still haven't gone out running, and in fact I'm still in my jimjams and dressing gown, but in a good snuggly way not a cant be bothered way.