Mental illness and running

So who farted on you?

Minimini farted on my lap while we were reading stories in the library ... delightful!! 
Mini gave herself a little haircut while she was at school today, I tried really, really hard not to laugh  

bless!

ooh and I have booked onto an improvisation course with a public show at the end *wibble*

Failed attempt at running club run tonight.  Got more nervous the nearer I got and wimped out in the end.  Really frustrating after the problems with the weather.

Oh that's great brave bear - I love how far you've come in the last few months, it's amazing! 

Ahh LR someone wise once said to me that you can only work from now, You did your best, you've won over the anxiety a million times more than lost and you have a whole week to gather your strength and prepare for next week. 

I have a meeting with the Richmond fellowship tomorrow - Sally must have sent the referral after I grumped at her last week I'm hoping for a way to get back to studying and some active, energetic (but not people based) volunteer work  

Thanks SOLB.  It's just always a real crash to go from having a chance to do something to then not have another chance for another few days, but I do need to bounce back from that before I can try to face it again.

Great to hear about your day with minimini and news about the Richmond fellowship.  Hope the meeting goes well for you.

oooh that sounds fab Solb

that reminds me - they were supposed to be contacting me about volunteer work

Want me to poke them for you Bear? 

It takes real guts to keep trying something that's so difficult LR, don't estimate what an awesome achievement that is. Your drive and determination are pretty admirable - I know plenty of people that would have just thrown the towel in altogether. 

Yes please, and get minimini to fart at them too

Right I m off to bed (I know I know stupid midnight rule) 
I'll report in on the Richmond people tomorrow
Night all, hope it's a restful one and the morning alarm doesn't arrive too soon!  

I don't think there's anything wrong with the midnight rule SOLB.  It's just if midnight becomes 1.00 am or 2.00 am or beyond that it's a problem. 

My alarm didn't arrive too soon.  Got a more sensible nightime routine last night but don't seem to have been rewarded by feeling any better this morning.  Oh well. one day to go and then I've got three days off and stuff to look forward to this weekend.

Eurgh for some reason I couldn't sleep until nearly 6am.

Hope Richmond goes well Solb

I still have no idea if they can help. A million forms filled in.. Apparently we don't discuss what I'm looking for and if they can help until next week!! 

That sounds rather odd - if they can't help that's a week wasted

Nice to hear from you Bear, been a bit quiet a couple of days, or have I had you accidently on ignore?  This is the website I googled and hope its the right one!

XFR bear that is the website, check the feedback out on Amazon, the book has helped many and you and anyone else here is welcome to a free pdf copy just email throught the site, I used a different name on here to the site for privacy reasons but that is my site yes

Ah okay thanks very much Paul - I did wonder if it was a privacy thing but couldn't be sure

Big Burns night event tonight...meant to be fun and instead I'm dreading it. Would much rather curl up in bed...*sigh*

Hope everyone is good and keeping warm. 

That's a shame, RWTW, I'm certainly glad I don't have to go anywhere tonight.  Reminds me that it's a year ago this week since a really excellent weekend away in Edinburgh with the orienteering club - one race around the city, the other on Arthur's Seat, a ceilidth in the evening - and even veggie haggis!

Frustrating for you SOLB re Richmond.  Let's hope it proves worthwhile in the end.

I'm feeling under more pressure at work.  My concentration hasn't been good this week and I'm just not getting things done.  Did do one good thing today though.  I'd opted out of going out to lunch with the others for a colleagues last day.  I felt that she could be trusted so I e-mailed to tell her it was due to my depression and anxiety issues that I wasn't going and I would have liked to really, whilst asking her not to tell anyone.  She responded supportingly, said she quite understood and wished me all the best.