Mental illness and running

Do we need a bit of VRC teamwork to get you out there running again, SOLB?  Probably can't do tomorrow though as I'm out on a social.

Hope by 'eck's coping OK and also Soupy's been quiet to today so hope you;re OK too.

Just nodded off in front of the telly and am very bleary eyed so must get off properly now. 

I certainly find it really can be tough when you've had a few unsuccesful attempts - it does make it more difficult.  I think only you can decide when you're ready to have any go, knowing that the VRC cheerleaders will be with you all the way.

The occasions when I am actually happy running are few and far between these days - but I know that when I acheive it, it's the best I ever feel.  So it remains a the ultimate goal for me.  The last time I did feel really good running was last September at the City of London Orienteering race.  One guy filmed his race with a head camera and I often look at the video to remind me of the feeling I'm aiming for:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vsizB0hj6bE

Morning. I'm still here, lurking cos feeling a bit quiet and struggly. Don't know why, work went well yesterday and the senior manager said how well I'd fitted in which made me feel good in a way I haven't for months. I think those feel good feelings are somehow making me realise just how ill I've been and for how long which I'm finding myself reflecting on. I keep thinking I'm well, then get a glimpse of being even more well and realise I wasn't as well as I thought.  Feeling a bit sort of traumatised by it so need to stop dwelling and ruminating.

Its a lovely bright sunny day here so I really should do a run but having trouble finding the energy. VRC group run tomorrow anyone?

I haven't ruled out today yet.  Supposed to have a builder coming round to look at my garage.  Might have time to get out before heading out for a beer festival trip with the running club later.  Tomorrow, I'm belatedly doing my 2012 new sport to try and having a go at archery.  It's just something I've always wanted to have a go at but have never had the chance.  Unfortunately, the publicity from the Olympics have made it difficult to get the opportunity until now.

Okay, I'm going to do it. I'm going to get my running kit on and plod round the park, even its just a mile. Gonna join me LR? Just for 20 mins unless we decide to carrry on further once we've got going?

Just going to get tidied up round here then will go for it about an hours time. 

Last night as ok thanks. I just feel so awkward when I'm in that state of mind and so when you're surrounded by people you don't know that well...it just makes me very anxious!

However...we have more snow. And nowhere is gritted. And I really need to get out tomorrow and do a 15 miler esp as I missed last weeks one. Stupid snow!!

LR- really well done on telling your colleague. And glad they were supportive  

5 miles.

Well done, Soupy.  Well I did get out there - but only managed to run for 6 minutes before I had to stop.  It was a case of the rough running surface from the melting snow making me increasingly nervous of making myself feel ill like I was when I ran last week.  Thanks for encouraging me though, but today's not the day.  Frustrating as ever though.

RLTW - I'm always anxious with people I don't know.  How difficult it is depends on how talkitive they are.  Talkative ones make it easier but to stuck with a quiet person and trying to make conversation just makes me more nervous.  I think the snow should all be thawed by tomorrow though - but it may be rather wet and slushy.

LR - thanks, yeah, same. I just get anxious as feel so self consciuos in those situations! Also...I hope so. Theres a good few inches around and atm it looks ok..nice and fluffy...but I'm worried it'll thaw a bit then get icy. I don't do well with ice!! Think It'll be a case of manning up and hoping for the best!! I would be so annoyed to miss another run and start getting annoyed with myself so as long as I really try to do it I reckon it'll be ok. Hopefully. Come on sun! 

well done by 'eck, Sorry to hear that some of you guys still have snow.

Good running peeps!

Hope you get the wheezes sorted, Solb

cross post solb. Sorry you wheezed. Can you start by just a brisk walk till you've warmed up a bit? Again, don't want to sound patronising, and I'm still running 13min miles but don't care, I'm running. 

Yeh, I'm loads better after that run thanks Solb.   Wheezing is horrid. Poor you. If you would just out of breath you would might be breathing heavy but not wheezing. Could be the cold air I suppose? Whatever, I hope you get it sorted soon.