Mental illness and running

Soup Dragon: I went to spectate at Challenge Henley last year and it looked fun and well organised. I did consider doing it for a while at that time but the call of Ironman was too loud to ignore. I'm also apprehensive about the sea swim as I've had anxiety attacks in mass swim starts before but I'm determined to conquer that particular problem. On the plus side, I like riding up hills and it's a beautiful part of the world too.

Not sure about getting the Pirate kit yet. I have registered on the website, so maybe..?

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ctpotato, you NEED pirate kit.  If you don't want to buy any then beg, borrow or steal it.  The support you get wwhen you wear it is fantastic and will give you such a lift when you are struggling through those final miles

Agree with what Caz says.  Get involved with the Pirates and you will enjoy your training more and get oodles of support on the day. Not to mention making some great friends.   Why don't you join us at the Pirate feed station at Outlaw this year. Its a great day and good chance to meet people. Then there is Silent Assasin's DIY half ironman in May as  a training session.  In fact everyone can help at the feed station, its hard work but a good time so all welcome. 

Pirate feed station

DIY Half IM

By Eck - well done. It's a huge thing to come out and say that, and just by doing so you are well on your way to recovery. I couldn't tell dr's either (I have a bit of a compulsion to lie over tricky situations) but nevertheless managed to get on the road to recovery. It can be done esp with the support of those around you.

Having one of those nights. Feel useless and a waste of space. Visiting my bf (long distance relationship) and have cried pretty much all evening over stupid passing comments. To others it just sounds stupid, but whe he's cooking and i'm in the way...well I get upset and feel useless. And this makes me think that I'm just useless and a waste of space in general. And then I start crying. And then any other small thing will set me off (he said he was behind on his work with me coming to visit...this makes my mind translate this as 'your stopping me from working and are wasting my time and i don't want you here'. Stupid but I can't help but get upset. Sorry, bit of a vent. Just helps to write things down.

rwtw - you are not stupid at all. Sorry you are crying though. You have recognised that those thoughts are not helpful which is a good start. Can you try and flip them round at all? Its nice that you are in the way of him cooking, it shows he cares that he wants to prepare dinner or whatever for you. He puts you ahead of his work too.

Bricki - how are you? What happened to your blog?

Bricki - in case it's an issue, your previous blog was still there last time I looked.

RWTW - I think at time things can just get too much whatever happens.  Just hope your boyfriend understands.

I'm calling it a night now.  Really tired tonight.

Night all. xx

Morning everyone!

I hope everyone is raring to get into another week! (Or at least hasn't got that dreading feeling)

Well done By Eck for being brave. I'm pleased for you and I hope it helps. You've almost inspired me to be brave (Emphasis on the almost, haha!).

Hello RWTW, from having been a bf who's busy...it's hard because in some respects you have loads of work to do but want to spend all your time with your partner, and you only remember you have loads of work to do on Sunday night! Long distance relationships are really hard, but worth it in the end,

Peace and love y'all!

I agree that long distance relationships can work. I lived 180 miles from Mr Soup when we first met and we've now been married for almost 26 years. Don't give up rwtw. 

Thank you for all these nice words. We had a lot of talks last night(he worries he causes me to be down, I worry I make him annoyed....) and talked about the distanc, and we're going to keep a going. It's going to get even futher apart and so will be tough, but hearing of people having successful long distance relationships makes it seem worth it. When the only bad thing is the distance, seems stupid to give it up.

Also. By'eck...well done. It's a really tough road but you are eating and that's good. I found that I would try and eat lots of healthy stuff. I could justify eating things that were good for me, and just tried to eat a lot of them. That made me comfortable with eating a 'normal' amount. And then, after a good run, 'treat' yourself. Nothing too big as will make you feel guilty...but start small. You'll know you've worked it off and so it won't have an effect.

Ooh - I think I could manage a run with the incentive of spotty dog for company.  As it is, hoping a succesful return to the running club tomorrow night.  I desparately need it as I think I forgot to pay my membership subs to the Prodcutive Day Club.  The one thing I have got to show for my day off is a new pair of trail shoes from the local running shop.  Bit of an effort there - drove straight past the car park first time and had to convince myself I could do it before driving back again.

RWTW - good to hear it's all worked out for you. 

LR - well done on getting the shoes. That'll be a great incentive to get out on the trails! And thanks. It's not worked out really, I think we've just agreed although it'll be tough, it'll be worth it

Morning. 

Could we have a meeting of the Productive Day Club please? I've got loads of fiddly bits of paperwork to do that I've been putting off and they are now urgent. The ironin is piling up and I haven't done a bike ride apart from commute to work in weeks. I've kept telling myself lazy days are good for me. 

Spotty run - lucky Solb.