I wanted a place where we could get advice and support.
What were you in trouble for then?
Ah, should have guessed. Surely that tends to be the case when you're having to deal with an eating disorder. A bit like telling me off for not being as happy as I should be.
Evening. Love the tumbleweeds.
by'eck, does Alice know about your eating disorder? Sorry if thats a stupid question but can't remember if you said earlier.
I've been a very naughty dragon but only in my head and I feel rather liberated by it. I had a sudden thought about throwing a custard pie in the face of the past colleague who pushes all my wrong buttons. And that thought made me grin so much that I imagined I had loads of custard pies. I pied the other person in my old office who bullied me as well, then I saved 2 big pies for the senior manager who told me to just wait for my tablets to take effect. I put a virtual pie in his face and a second down his trousers then blew a raspberry on my way out. Oh how I wish I could do it for real.
Oooh custard pie therapy - sounds like fun
If anyone pressed my buttons it was my old boss at work - I think I'll pie her!
See the psyche for the first time in ages because they cocked up the appointments tomorrow. Not sure what I'm going to say
Oh Soup Dragon this has made me laugh. I often imagine punching people I don't like. Like a proper man punch, right in the face. In fact, I figure I might do it one day...girls punching guys is sometimes acceptable (I've decided...)
By'eck - you're right, she was almost certainly trying to get you to see how you have to keep trying. It's a battle but you really have to just keep going, no matter how hard it gets.Also, I've always been more open to friends, or on things such as this. It's the main reason I've not been to counselling and really don't want to go. I went once, a long time ago, and just lied. It's like back to when I had an eating disorder, I just lied. Knowing someone was evaluating me meant I wanted to give the 'right' answers...so I would just make things up and say I was fine. It's really odd, and when things have been bad all my friends have told me to go talk to someone....but I really just can't. I sit there and make things up and pretend things are completely fine. I know the signs they are looking for and just make sure I don't say anything that might elude to them... :/
Oooh! research job has come up with one of my favourite uni lecturers - seriously tempted to apply, just feeling a bit wibbly about taking on a full time job at the moment
It's a big step to take Bear but would be great for you if you could get it. How long is since you were working full time?
Bear - thats a tough decision. No harm in applying so long as you don't get too let down if it doesn't go well. Good luck whatever you decide.
Another good day for me. Had my hair cut (twirls) and feeling quite energetic. I do believe I'm well and truly on the road to recovery.
Yay, great news there Soupy. I had a 'wrong end of Friday' morning followed by a better afternoon.
I pretty much finished off my old pair of trail running shoes on the night orienteering event on the Common last night. I have never encounted it so waterlogged and muddy. Made it rather hard going.
Well done by 'eck.
Good effort there, by 'eck.
The night orienteering is on areas that I'm very familiar with so I don't find it too difficult - navigation wise anyway. Dragging myself over muddy ground is another matter. I really could do with a better head torch though as a couple of times I ran straight past a control without seeing it. I would say it does require a good level of skill with a compass as accuracy is all the more important in the dark.
Off out with friends tomorrow. Another beer trip to Nottingham this time. It's not like me to do that 2 weeks running but it's just how it fell. Diet starts next week - again!
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