Mental illness and running

I wanted a place where we could get advice and support.

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03/03/2013 at 14:52

It's OK, rwtw.  I think setting targets and expectation can be an important way of motivating ourselves and helping cope with life in general - but it's difficult to deal with when not being able to do as much as you would like.  I've certainly found not being able to run this week has really got me down.  I've genuinely been ill so there's a good reason.  Even so, what little bit of confidence I had from recent runs has gone with it and I'm faced with having to start all over again.  It also makes coping with work difficult.  You're definitely not a failure for doing 20 miles at all - in the same way that I'm not a failure if I get out to run again when I'm well.

I often think I need something else to be able to feel better about as once a run has gone badly that gets me down and makes it more difficult for another time.  Do you have other targets in your life that could be a focus for positives when the running isn't up to what you'd hope?

03/03/2013 at 16:21

Thank you LR. This is good to hear.

To top off a glum mood, i just had to spend an hour and a half on the phone to my bank as they had cancelled a standing order without informing me. Not on. They then wouldn't let me make a payment as I don't have telephone banking, and the online site wasn't working. So I was two days late on rent with no way of paying back. Cue me crying down the phone....seemed to just hit that panic button and was all I could do not to have a full on panic attack whilst on the phone.. Eventually sorted this months payment, but not at all happy that they canclled it without informing me. Grrr.

03/03/2013 at 16:37

Big hugs (((runwiththewind)))

03/03/2013 at 16:42

That is out of order rwtw.  I wouldn't be happy either

04/03/2013 at 18:05

Rubbish day today.  Just didn't feel like setting about battling through yet another week.  It's just such an effort all the time and I get fed up with it.  A quiet one tonight is definitely in order and hope for better tomorrow.

05/03/2013 at 17:56
Things are a bit hard
05/03/2013 at 17:58

Big hugs (((By eck))).  Is moo still in hospital?

05/03/2013 at 23:44

Wimped out of running club tonight.  Totally fed up with all now.

06/03/2013 at 10:45
Now home
06/03/2013 at 19:06

Thats good news by 'eck.  I assume that means that things are improving a little?

06/03/2013 at 19:24
Yes, though we had a delivery of medical supplies tonight and nearly everything is wrong. I'm really not happy
08/03/2013 at 01:18

Popping by to offer hugs but everyone is quiet, hope that means you are all good or at least better xxxxxxxxxx

08/03/2013 at 07:44

Thanks, SOLB.  I've had a bad week but have taken a couple of positive steps last night.  I've arranged a meeting with the union at work to discuss where I stand if I have to go for hospital appointments as I wouldn't want to disclose the reason at work.  Also, as panic attacks have stopped me getting out with the running club this week, I have e-mailed someone in the club to ask them to pass on a message to the run leader for next week.  I'm hoping I would find it easier if the person taking the run knows the problems I'm having.

08/03/2013 at 08:35

Hi. I wanted to ask if people here struggled with the mental toughness side of running, especially when they're not well? I've got serious depression and while I find my strength is the best its ever been as I've been going to a GP referral gym group for around 8 months now and can bound/crawl up hills which defeated me in better times, I no longer have the abilility to push on past mild fatigue. I ran my first half marathon without stopping. Admittedly, my second was faster with walking but it was in the USA so very humid and undulating was an understatement.

If I'm really bad and have forced myself to gym class and go on the treadmill, I've only managed 2 mins before my breathing becomes tight and panicky and I have to stop in tears.

 

Hate that running is so difficult now

08/03/2013 at 08:50
Depression affects your self belief and confidence so when you feel like something might be aching or its getting hard your brain says "ok, you can't do this, it's too hard, time to give up". Where I live is surrounded by hills. Some days I seek them out, others I opt for a quick jog in the park because that is all I feel I can do. On more than one occasion I've failed to even get to the top of our road (I live on a hill) and decided it wasn't worth carrying on. Yup, depression is a pig to running. I'm sorry you're finding it so tough. Set little manageable targets. Your past achievement aren't there to beat yourself up over. I've run marathons, but I'm not at that point in my current cycle so I'm not aiming to go out and run one tomorrow.
08/03/2013 at 16:58

Yes, definitely, TTM.  The mental side of running is 100% the problem for me.  I know I can run reasonably well when I'm OK mentally but that's very rare these days.  Treadmill running I find even more difficult.  I tried it a while ago when we had the wintry weather and I couldn't get out on the roads.  I did a bit more than your 2 minutes but only got as far as 10 minutes before I couldn't bear it any more.  Rather a costly gym membership there as I haven't been back since.  Sounds like you've got some positives there with your hill work.  I know I'm doing OK when I can get up the hill.  It opens up so many more options when I can.  At the moment getting out at all is proving a challenge for me though. 

Hows things with you at the moment, by 'eck?

10/03/2013 at 22:49

Hows things with people out there?

I've had a positive response from the person in the running club that I contacted re my panic attacks.  She's passed my message onto the run leader for this Thursday so she'll be aware so I hope that will help with getting me running this week again.  Only complication is that the person that was scheduled to be leading the run is not going to be doing it now so we'll see how it goes.

Got out for a muddy orienteering session today which went OK.  Didn't manage all that much running though - but it's a start.

Things going a bit better but tired out now and another week's work to face.  Things are never easy.

11/03/2013 at 08:42
We getting into a little routine
I need to go to the dentist but I think they will do a root canal and I am petrified
11/03/2013 at 10:26

Morning all!

 

I found another job to apply for late last night

 

Trouble is - it's due in today, and it's an online application so I'm having to madly fill in sections rather than just be able to use a standard CV (I'd tailor it to the job anyway).

 

I'm not as excited as for the last one but it's still research experience which will be good and I do have an interest.  I need some work now as I think it'll be beneficial to me quite apart from the money.

11/03/2013 at 18:05

Glad to hear you are settling into a routine by 'eck.

Fingers crossed for you XFR bear.

 

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