Mental illness and running

I wanted a place where we could get advice and support.

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06/12/2013 at 15:54

Hello guys.  Been a while since I've been here and it looks like someone has been forgetting to put out tea and cake.  Is normal tea and coffee cake good enough for everyone?

I seem to have taken a turn for the worse recently and so I am back to make use of the support and friendship on here.

Thanks to a comment from a thoughtless friend I have lost all confidence in my running ability and all motivation for trying.

Thanks to a series of events, including the loss of Beebs, I have dropped back into depression.

Thanks to a boss who lacks the human touch, I feel that I am a failure at work

And thanks to all of the above I have managed to alienate one of my closest friends.

Not much seems to be going right at the moment, but the good news is that I am still fighting

06/12/2013 at 15:58
SuperCaz wrote (see)

 

Thanks to a comment from a thoughtless friend I have lost all confidence in my running ability and all motivation for trying.

Thanks to a series of events, including the loss of Beebs, I have dropped back into depression.

Thanks to a boss who lacks the human touch, I feel that I am a failure at work

And thanks to all of the above I have managed to alienate one of my closest friends.

Not much seems to be going right at the moment, but the good news is that I am still fighting

Errr, did you not swim the English Channel? Why would you care less whether someone thinks youre running fast enough?

As for your boss ...... look up 'the Peter Principle' ..... he's probably got as far as he can go, so his incompetence is there for everyone to see.

If they were one of your closest friends, you'll be able to build bridges again.

As Dolly Parton once said ...... if you want to see the rainbow, you've got to have a bit of rain.

 

06/12/2013 at 18:28

SuperCaz you are doing much better than me at the running, you did 2 laps for the Santa dash unlike my little one and only lap with walking bits and were in front of me.

Tea and cake appreciated, I am expecting to have a down period having had such a good up time last weekend. Laughter is really a good medicine.

06/12/2013 at 18:39

I've just found this threat and will read through it all eventually if I get the chance but I thought I'd say hello. I'm suffering from depression and anxiety as well. It's taken me a while to admit it and visit the Doctor but finally I've seen a way forward. I'm also on Paroxetine - but am not sure they are helping.

The Doctor this week asked if I'd stopped running - well after the Cardiff Half Marathon I did stop for two weeks. This has probably been mentioned before but stopping stops the endomorphins in the body (which are addictive). Running definately helps.

Anyhow - I've said hello now. I'll try and read back and keep up with this thread.

Gareth

06/12/2013 at 18:53

Mr I, my swimming the Channel has little bearing on other things in life.  It was only a bit of swimming.  It says nothing about me as a person and really isn't the most defining factor about me.

The comment about my running had nothing to do with speed.  I am happy with the speed that I run at.  It was much more personal than that and unless you get to know me a lot better you won't understand why it is important.

Gareth, welcome to the thread.  I wouldn't waste too much time reading back as a lot of it is just waffle as we get to know each other.  Sorry to hear that you are another one who had fallen victim to the black dog but at least you recognise it and have some ideas of what you can do to help yourself.

CJ, it was a great weekend, but there will be plenty more

06/12/2013 at 23:09

Hi SuperCaz - thank you for the welcome. Seems it runs in my family.

Gareth

07/12/2013 at 11:11

I managed a lie in until 5:30 this morning which I'm pleased about, especially as I went to bed really early too.

I've been doing a lot of thinking this morning.  Last time I was in a bad place was 10 years ago, almost to the day.  I've been thinking about what I did last time to help myself and how I can apply that to this situation.

It was 10 years ago in April that SuperCaz came into existence after several months of struggling to understand where my life was going wrong.  I started off by looking at myself objectively and wondering how others saw me, and what I would think if one of my friends behaved as I did.  Identifying the flaws was painful, but it helped me to focus on what the real obstacles were to being happy, rather than blaming it all on everyone else, or fate.

The next stage was to identify what changes I could make to my life, my thinking and my actions.  I focused on who I wanted to be and gave her a name 'SuperCaz' - a fictional person who I could play around with in my head and work out what it was about her that I admired and respected.  SuperCaz was confident, popular, respected, good at what she did and she could achieve whatever she put her mind to.  She made life look easy.

I've made some huge progress towards being the person I want to be, but recent circumstances have allowed me to take my eye off the ball.  So as of today SuperCaz Mk II is being launched.  Last time I suffered on my own, but this time I have a huge support network that I can draw on and I want it all to be out in the open just on the off chance that something I do triggers ideas that are beneficial to others.

07/12/2013 at 12:11

SC the Mk1 version seemed to be doing alright when I last looked, you give me something to aspire to.

I had an odd day feeling thin and toned but knowing that the scales had told me I had put a few pounds back on in a very short period of time. Then I felt fat and all was even and normal, but I am working on good habits to replace not helpful ones.

07/12/2013 at 12:22

Looks can be deceiving CJ, especially when you've had several years of practising hiding things.

Weight is a strange thing CJ.  I'm feeling huge today which doesn't tally with my skirt being so lose that I have to keep pulling it up.  But at least weight isn't one of my hang ups and I don't tend to weigh myself so have no idea whether I am gaining or losing.

07/12/2013 at 12:32

Shouldnt you change your username then SupeCaz given your new name?

 

07/12/2013 at 16:48

Nah, I'm still the same person, just with different goals

10/12/2013 at 11:36

I wonder how people cope with not running? I ran Cardiff Half the other week and had such a buzz from it that I think I crashed really badly afterwards. It is a while before my next 'organised distance'. The anxiety and depression could be caused by that (adding to other things of course)

My Doctor said it is because I have gone cold turkey and the endomorphins have stopped and like any brain chemical they are addictive.

How does everyone else cope with having to take time of from running - if they are injured etc?

Gareth

13/12/2013 at 00:18

Hi, welshgje.  Just catching up after a busy few days. 

I guess if there's one way in which I'm fortunate it's that I've never to date had a lengthy lay off through injury.  I do constantly find it difficult to get out there and run though that I rarely achieve the all-important buzz these days.  I have found that what works best for me though is leading runs with the running club.  If I'm able to concentrate on other people's running it means it succesfully takes my attention away from myself and I can run OK.

14/12/2013 at 17:27

I tend to deal with enforced rest by keeping busy doing other things.  At the moment I am decorating, but it could be planning a get together with friends, putting together a training plan for when I am fit again, or catching up on something around the house that I've been putting off for ages

My old running club often had several 'walking wounded' that would meet up on club nights and go for a gentle walk.  It was a good way of getting out and meeting people rather than sitting around moping.

25/01/2014 at 22:00

It seems to be about 8 weeks between posts for me, I had a bad patch at the start of December then got a call out of the blue from a former colleague saying she'd recommended me for a job at a local school - and I got it! head on car crash Christmas Eve left me with a nasty case of whiplash but the new job started in January and so far everything is going well *crosses fingers*. The meds have evened out now although sometimes I "forget" to take them oddly enough if I'm feeling very down as I'm not convinced they work when that happens. Running 4 times a week now, intending to get into double figures this week and have improved my parkrun time by 6 minutes this month. Still 6 minutes slower than I was pre operation but its good to get out. I still have to pick routes where I know I won't meet anyone but I'm getting out. Its so interesting reading other people's posts, even those who are in the depths of despair have humour in their writing even if it is it is sometimes decidedly black All power to everyone's elbows and have a good 2014 everyone, may this be the year when we all turn to the light and kick that big black dog right in the bits!!!

 

26/01/2014 at 16:49

Good to hear your making progress, Grimfoot.  I've certainly had a bad time running wise but have done a few Parkruns on the basis that it's about as far as I feel I can run non-stop at the moment.  Difficult going at first but am gaining a bit of confidence at turning up which meant I improved my PB by 51 seconds.  Even a Parkrun has been leaving me pretty exhausted for the rest of the day.  I stopped taking the anti-depressants just over a week ago because I was feeling so rubbish.  Yesterday's Parkrun may have been an indication that this was a good move - difficult to tell as there are ups and downs. 

31/01/2014 at 17:04

I have just been prescribed anti-depressants due to anxiety disorder and will be testing them out for a couple of weeks.

Hubby and I emigrated to Canada from the UK 3.5yrs ago and due to having to deal with a lot of doo doo, my nerves have been well and truly jangled.  My weight has dropped and I have a high stress job.  The doctor told me to eat more - first time I have ever heard that one.

Am doing a half marathon next weekend and then start training for a full marathon a couple of weeks after.

31/01/2014 at 20:40

Good luck with that, its good to get out, if you can. I struggled for months with anxiety but the meds really helped - eventually!

 

31/01/2014 at 22:54

Thanks Grimfoot....the kitchen table now looks like a pharmacy!

I am actively resting for a change, and have decided to take the weekend off from running etc., and RELAX.  

Will resume next week, and it should be a good race.

04/02/2014 at 10:55

Does anyone have any suggestions on meditation for managing depression / anxiety / sleep?

A combination of medical problems, relationship issues, stressed at work and growing anxiety issues has left me at times depressed - in truth suicidal. Managing better now and running helps enormously. However a major issue is struggling to stay asleep at night. Getting to sleep easy enough but rarely getting more than 4 hours. I believe that meditation might assist with this along with anxiety and panic attacks. Anyone got any ideas?

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