Speedy, I read your posts and felt so much for you. I've just come back from where you are and IT CAN BE DONE!!! I got injured nearly 4 years ago and could do anything at all for a long time. I gained weight, lost motivation and got very depressed. I would try to get back to the gym but because I couldn't do what I'd done before I'd feel terrible and get into the state of mind that if I couldn't do that I wouldn't do anything at all. I didn't help that the injury meant I couldn't run for a long time - achilles tendon rupture, then another surgery on it a year later - and running was all I wanted to do. But, I finally started to see that I was being silly so went back to the gym and started really gently. The weight started to come off which made the exercise easier and started real slow jogging. I've now lost 15-16kg, did 2 PBs at 10k in 8 days in November and I'm doing Reading and then FLM, aiming for 4.45 or so in FLM. You can do it. I'll send you all good thoughts I can! Go for it. I'd love to make contact with all you guys at Reading if possible.