This has been a bad week. Started off bad with the foot hurting for no reason and as the week has progressed I've gone into a bit of a dark hole resulting in yesterday's swim being this week's exercise (manic gardening, mowing lawn and distroying wardrobes do not count as cross training)
I've gone into a little dark world that has "lard arse" written on every wall and surface in big 6ft high bright red letters. Along with failure, you can't finish anything you start, you're too chicken to do the training, to pay the entry fee, finish etc.
Currently hating myself, and feeling very sad and pathetic and wondering why did I enter FB (I have to do it I've paid now!) and why have I publicly said I will do Outlaw? I mean I can't possibly finish either as I am that useless. If I can't even train when off work how can I fit in the training when I'm working.
Sorry 
Someone asked at a work conference thingy about 5yrs ago ... If you were guaranteed success what would you do? My answer was do an ironman.
I'm assuming this is the 1st of probably main stresses over the 45 weeks until Outlaw and I'm assuming it will pass. I hope it goes quickly as I don't like what I am feeling right now but seeing as this thread has kind of become my journey I thought I would write it down - that way at least I can look back one day (hopefully on 8th July 2013) and say Silly Me! I did it!!