Me and Capt were picked up by a support van and taken to an ambulance, Capts blood pressure was low and I kept flat lining when they were taking my blood pressure. Nothing to worry about then!! We laughed and joked on our trip back to the medical tent at HPP. Once in the tent the medical staff wanted us to wait until toilet issues had passed. All I wanted to do was go in a corner and cry, I sneaked down to the changing tent and got my phone to ring family out on the course, I couldn’t speak on the phone trying to tell them I had failed. After the phone call I stood wiping tears from my eyes and thought to myself, ‘remember this feeling you soft twat, be stronger next time’. I had already planted the seed to return and conquer the OUTLAW.
I am truly honoured to have spent part of the day with so many special people. The whole organisation was fantastic. The Pirate support was truly amazing from the Feed station, to the supporters who lift the whole crowd. An experience I will never forget. Amazing highs and the terrible realization of failure. Thank you to you all...VERY very special people. Proud to be a Pirate ... in training!
Sorry for not hanging around at the finish but I just wanted to dig a whole and hide.
Well done to all who finished and commiserations to the few who didnt do it this time.
Let me try and answer this...
*Deep breath*
The Pirate thing is 'wonderful' and 'impressive' and 'not quite reflective of reality' online. Note my very considered use of online. If it wasn't for this, many people including myself wouldn't have achieved or even considered (the latter being true for me) IM and beyond that distance.
However, I don't believe, despite a plethora of very good mentors on here, that it is for everyone instantly. Now I'm not talking personally about you at all but I have seen people that I used to respect mentor people to failure when they should have been honest and said... "Go for IM 2 years in or 3 years in, not this year you won't make it"
If I mentor you and you won't make it I'll tell you.
For all of us, if you put all your eggs in the Pirate basket, it's great if you pull it off, whether that be by such hard work, commitment and determination, or fly by the seat of your pants.
But it's wrong to let people think that everyone can do it without having proper guidance, strategy, and someone being honest with them and not just saying 'You can do it, you can do it, look we all did. If I can, you can!'
Sometimes the person that fails has the potential to be much stronger than others and faster in the long run, but confidence is shattered.
I do understand and support all the positive Pirate vibes, but I also see the other side, which I'll mention if no-one else will. It's a bandwagon, my advice is only jump on it with people you trust.
Edited: 04/07/2012 at 19:05