Lovely photo Nells, I really understand the refusing to let you run, I have never had a ballot place either. When I didn't get a place this year after applying for what must be the tenth time I seriously thought about challenging how the select. Ho hum.
Pancake age is just a number, just focus on the running and read the advice and you will be fine. Im slower than probably most runners on this forum, just don't let it bother me!