Big G, I really hope you get some answers from the PM so that you can get on with organising the funeral. I'm glad that you've got lots of photos to treasure. I think Claire is like a lot of women in not liking videos of herself but she obviously loved photos as she prepared that book of you both. Maybe as Emmy says the school might have videos footage. I'm glad the counselling session was somewhat reassuring and good that you can call him in the future if you want. Your return to running is looking positive so far - is the achilles pain free after your runs?
I'm like Shades in that I could never do without some carbs. Would oat cakes (those savoury crackers) count as carb as I have an addiction to them with cheese!
I got the 'You're In' mag this morning. No surprise as GFA. Don't know anyone who got in via the ballot.
Kattc - that seems odd as the good runners would all be getting championship or GFA places so wouldn't need the club places. All the clubs I know either just pick names out of a hat or give the places to runners who have helped the club most in the year in terms of marshalling, etc which seems fair.
Big G, I'm glad to hear that your using a spreadsheet for your activities! The hot desk option sounds promising. Even if you still want to do something different at some point, it sounds like it's worth giving it a try when you do go back. I read the book 'Fat Chance' which is all about sugar and it made a lot of sense. I think I started to bore friends and family about it though! Nice to come on here and hear from like minded people!
Got loads of Marathon Talks to catch up with. Currently listening to one featuring Jo Pavey and Liz Yelling - bit dull really - they've both been telling each other how wonderful they were and are for about half an hour. Should try and find the Noakes one instead.
+1 for joining a club. Our club get a couple of places and there's not a huge demand for them. Also through my club I helped at one of the water stations this year and apparently they all get places too. Again, I don't think they'll be a huge demand for our water station place. I've only entered the ballot once and was lucky to get in. I've since got GFA places.
Big G - crikey, 17 miles is a lot of walking. I think the take it as it comes approach is about all you can expect yourself to be focusing on for now. I can see how it's only when you think about the tasks that you are doing and their meaning that the emotions start to flow, I guess that's what you meant when you said it came like waves. I've heard people say that it's when the numbness starts to fade that you feel forced to cope with the extent of your grief and that must be so painful. Re thinking about the future, you can't expect yourself to have everything planned out neatly re house and job etc so soon as you are still in shock and getting your head around everything. I think MF is right saying that you shouldn't put yourself under lots of pressure to make so many decisions so soon. Are you still staying with your dad? I hope you are eating well and regularly.
I'll look up the paleo stuff with Noakes on MT soon. I'm not great at restrictive diets but try and minimise rubbish carbs (biscuits, cakes etc). Need potato in my fish pie though and couldn't do without noodles. I've been planning meals more over the last month before buying stuff and have cut down on pasta, unintentionally. Also trying to limit red meat - kids convinced tonight that Turkey mince was quorn! When I did the elite water station, a fair number of the elites, including Mo had gels taped to their water bottles (at mile 20). And lots had more than just water in their bottles - Haile's drink smelt like Ribena! I actually had a gel, 3 jelly babies and a bottle of Lucozade sport before my 10k yesterday! But mainly because it didn't start until 3 and I was getting tired.