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Hi everyone... Just 'checking in', I'm new here.

I have depression and PTSD, after a childhood of sexual assault. I'm 22 now and finally dealing with it all in lots of therapy and stuff so thats good.

Taken up running and healthy eating as a way to get a bit of a grip on my life. Need something to focus on and something to direct the painful energy towards.

So, hi! x

Wow, you guys are all so nice!  Thank you for such lovely messages!

I went for a run this morning, bit disappointed - my calves are very tight so I probably did about half of the Week 1 Day 1 run thing. But I've run three days in a row now, so its not a massive suprise I'm sore. Tomorrow I'm going to have the day off, rest up and then go again on Saturday.

Keep telling myself, even only doing half is better than doing nothing!

Have changed my diet as well... not starving myself (used to be anoxeric, then bullimic, and I currently border on binge eating!) but last night I had about a quarter amount of potatoes and then LOADS more veg. Felt fine! Replaced puddings (like sticky toffee/choc!) with yoghurts.... again, its not loads, but its something! Replaced bread for weightwatchers bread, and other food for the lower fat options.

I will have a look at those park runs, never heard of them before! I might also consider the beginners night.... I'm just shockingly rubbish!

I don't have a set of scales, so I don't know how much I weigh, but at 5ft2 I've just snuck into size 14 clothes enough is enough. For some reason, I hold the vast majority of my weight on my stomach, out front - I could pass for someone 6months pregnant so we'll see. I'm not fussed about weight - I just want to be a more balanced size for me.

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I am choosing where I run quite carefully! Currently running on the common, as roads hurt my ankles and it has the added benefit that there is almost nobody there!

Haha, I understand the going out in daylight fear! I even bought myself some lycra yesterday :O yep, seriously! I'm rocking the cellulite look at the moment, but I'm convincing myself that I'll feel better when the people laughing now see me get fit and attractive again!

At least you had a baby, my excuse is too much chocolate!

This one!

http://www.runnersworld.co.uk/events/viewevent.asp?sp=&v=1&EN=71649&ms=

The Run for Heroes one, if you can't see it. 4th November.

Will be interesting to see how I get on with the c25k thing, the intervals may be quite challenging! But I'm determined to do something about my weight (I have a young horse to ride, but I'd feel cruel atm!), so GAME ON!