6 months on and had the microfracture 4 weeks ago. Saw the Consultant today and advice is not to run again so the result of making the decision and having gone through this surgical procedure is not the one I wanted. He said I may be able to do some running - once or twice a week maybe towards the end of the year but only very short runs on soft surfaces. He said he wouldn't do that even. Am I in any pain since the op - no - but I wasn't in pain with everyday activities before. I had cut my running down to a level where I didn't even get that much/any pain when I did go out. Am I glad I had the op, God no - it feels like a terrible mistake at the moment - but then again who knows what would have happened if I hadn't had it. Do I regret running all these years - not at all. Do I hate the prospect of not running again - yes - can't get my head around it at the moment. Biggest regret is not having done more cross training over the years. Can anyone take away what I have achieved in the past - all my race wins etc - of course not, but would I give some of them up to be able to run for the next 10-15 years - oh yes. I look around at other runners whose style, weight etc is poor and ask "why" but I think I know the answer. 25 years of road and cross country running - pushing myself to the point that I have trainined hard and over the years won a lot, but now at a cost. So what do I do now - how do I get the same kick and keep fit? Got to work that one out once I get my head around what I have been told. Can I still cope with coaching and organising races for others when I can't do it myself anymore? Not sure how I feel about this at the moment. |