I would love to know how much I've cost the NHS over the past year.....
3 ultrasounds, 3 biopsies, 1 mammogram, 2 MRI scans, 2 CT scans, 2 nuclear medicine scans, 1 x ray, 2 operations under general anaesthetic, 1 night in hospital, 2 trips to A and E, 6 cycles of chemotherapy, ?more than 30 blood tests, at least 10 consultant appts, 10 appts with a clinical nurse specialist, 10 GP appts.........I'm sure I've forgotten something!
The trouble is advances in medicine are so great, and would have been inconceivable when the NHS was first thought of. It must be so hard making the judgement calls as to which patient or which disease gets the drugs/funding and which doesn't. But I do think there is a huge amount of wastage within the NHS as well that surely would save a lot of money if it was kept under control.
Minks a friend gave me a pretty hardback note book last yr to write a journal in - well I had no interest in documenting my cancer treatment thank you very much so it stayed unopened. Then at the Barts xmas carol service the vicar suggested trying to write down one good thing a day that happened, even if it was something as little as someone held the door open for me. I thought about doing that but then never did it either! However in all the reading I've been doing I kept coming across quotes that I liked, so I am using it to write down quotes, or snippets of messages people have sent me and my poems are in there. It's by my bed and I look at it from time to time, and write stuff in it every now and then.
Here is one I have on my phone - can't remember if I posted it on the FB page or not: It's from the Dalai Lama
He said there are only two days in the year nothing can be done. One is called yesterday and the other is called tomorrow, so today is the right day to love, believe, do and mostly live.
I spent 5 hrs yesterday at the steering meeting thing I think I mentioned as a 'Macmillan cancer voice' helping with a commissioning report for the provision of psychological services for cancer patients in London. It was really interesting to see things from the other side. Hopefully something will come of it. In the morning there were about 12 of us meeting, all 'service users' (ie cancer patients) and then in the afternoon we were part of a group of about 40 all having a discussion and listening to presentations from different people about the services they provide. There were some alarming statistics regarding the deficit of qualified people to provide the necessary support required within the different cancer centres, which makes me feel even more lucky that I have been able to find the right support and it is helping.
I would like to just point out that the wannabe hippy thing in no way references home schooling in my book! I am trying to build a good relationship with my kids, not destroy it completely! It's hard enough doing homework.,.....
Hubby and I are going to see M's headteacher at 8am next Tues(!) to discuss her, mainly with reference to her maths. I wasn't overly happy with my parent teacher meeting before 1/2 term so wrote a letter to the head about it. I think she's actually doing fine but her teacher was so negative it gave me the impression that she's a real dunce when it comes to maths, and I don't actually think she is. But if the school think she is I want to know how they are supporting her. The headteacher's quite a formidable lady so I am glad hubby is coming too!
Had a really nice hr with the kids this morning. I don't want to jinx it but we do seem less shouty in the mornings, everyone copperates, and all is good. Plus the sun is shining so it was a nice cycle to work.
Hubby going climbing at the wk end, so need to think of something to do with the kids. My dad is up so I'll have a bit of help.
Eric always falls for the 'who's going to do the first wee?' Race. But actually his bladder is so camel like and he never has accidents so if he says he doesn't need to go I trust him. Matilda is always up and dressed with hair done before anyone in the morning. Hair is messy but she does it herself and doesn't feel the need to have an elaborate French plait done by mother everyday (good thing too!) she will help Eric get dressed too if asked, as they know they can watch some telly before it's time for school as long as everything's done. But quite frequently the first notice I hear in the morning is Eric wailing because he has gone into Matilda's room and she's been mean to him, yelled at him etc. to be fair he's probably being annoying but she needs to learn to not react like that otherwise he will keep on doing it.
matilda really got the grateful thing today. I said my favourite thing today was my bike ride and that I was grateful I had 2 lovely children, and she replied that I could also be grateful I didn't get a puncture.
I've now reached the chapter on mindfulness in the parenting book and it says to practice mindfulness even if you aren't a hippy . I think maybe part of me is a wannabe hippy but in reality I know that's never going to happen.