Big G - crikey, 17 miles is a lot of walking. I think the take it as it comes approach is about all you can expect yourself to be focusing on for now. I can see how it's only when you think about the tasks that you are doing and their meaning that the emotions start to flow, I guess that's what you meant when you said it came like waves. I've heard people say that it's when the numbness starts to fade that you feel forced to cope with the extent of your grief and that must be so painful. Re thinking about the future, you can't expect yourself to have everything planned out neatly re house and job etc so soon as you are still in shock and getting your head around everything. I think MF is right saying that you shouldn't put yourself under lots of pressure to make so many decisions so soon. Are you still staying with your dad? I hope you are eating well and regularly.
I'll look up the paleo stuff with Noakes on MT soon. I'm not great at restrictive diets but try and minimise rubbish carbs (biscuits, cakes etc). Need potato in my fish pie though and couldn't do without noodles. I've been planning meals more over the last month before buying stuff and have cut down on pasta, unintentionally. Also trying to limit red meat - kids convinced tonight that Turkey mince was quorn! When I did the elite water station, a fair number of the elites, including Mo had gels taped to their water bottles (at mile 20). And lots had more than just water in their bottles - Haile's drink smelt like Ribena! I actually had a gel, 3 jelly babies and a bottle of Lucozade sport before my 10k yesterday! But mainly because it didn't start until 3 and I was getting tired.
Big G, glad you had a good parkrun yesterday. I'm the same as you re being in the same job since graduation (now 20 years ago!) But I always seem to have my sensible head on when thinking about other options and like the fact my hours out very short. I would have thought being a computer geek, you have plenty of options if you stay in that field, but if you fancy a big change, go for it.
Hot and hilly 10k race for me today. Not a PB course as long hill but pleased to knock 42 secs off last years time and was 2nd lady (First lady was 50s ahead). Time was 43:22. Importantly, beat my friend who was 3 mins behind. Our club got 1st team in both men's and women's and our fast V50 was first overall. Good running too from the little koalas - both won team prizes for their races and 7 yo was 8th in the race for 7-9 year olds from a field of 50+. He much prefers football but I'm hoping his trophy and medal today might persuade him to run more. OH finished in 57mins, not bad considering he's done next to no running in last couple of months.
Iain, 7:04 easy for 12 miles?!!! Looks good for Chester
((Big G)) This must be such a difficult period for you. I can see how you must feel in limbo before the PM and funeral are all over. I agree with Shades re working from home. But given your circumstances, could your work offer you some kind of flexibility, e.g. Continue WFH but have access to a hot desk in the Exeter office? You said before that your employer was fairly decent so they might be open to something like that. Did you get to do the parkrun this morning? I'm sure as you say that the stress from being in limbo is probably one of the reasons you are feeling like you can't remember all the memories. I expect over the next few months you'll be reminded of lots of happy times with Claire and that photo album that she did will really help. When one of my best friends died 9 years ago her family set up an online tribute site for people to post memories, photos and messages. I think her family found it painful to read at the time but probably look at it fondly now.
Shades, the 53 marathon lady posted on this site just before she started, looking for fellow runners to join her on any of the marathons. Most people on her were quite supportive but quite a few told her it wasn't that big a deal You must do a 5k soon! Maybe we should do a Shades parkrun meet up somewhere in 2015?!
Mamafox, I already have those shoes in red and have used them in races up to 10 miles. Think some use them for marathons but I'd feel a bit weary having such little support.