Oh TTid, that's so crap Can't imagine the stress levels. Thinking of you x
Caro, that sounds lovely I could do with a good sing at the moment. Have been singing lots to the kids but sadly no concerts planned. That will change next year though!
CC - so excited for your race! And also quite terrified for you. Someone I know from running club is doing it - he's a real ultra nutter Bless what S said - they sure know how to pull our strings, don't they? JP's card that he made yesterday had that effect on Ben - he was really upset that he'd just put me on it, not him. Nothing I have said or done - kids just make up their own mind.
Hoggle - lovely to hear that Freya is doing so well. How is M with her? Hope you're managing to get some rest. We need more pics
Camlo - boo to your mum being awkward
Lotte, I bet they're some fair heels! I used to be quite good with heels but not so much now.
Had my bloods done this morning (same time as G's jabs!). Hopefully shouldn't have too long to wait for results. In the meantime, a certain someone has seemingly had a personality transplant. He has almost completely backed down off his high horse and is more like the man I used to know. He's trying to be calm about my tests but I can tell he is upset - he asked how I was last night and when I said I've been in pain and bleeding heavily, his eyes filled with tears. Surprisingly I'm not enjoying seeing him hurt though. I guess I'm just too nice for my own good
Right, G is awake and chatting so better go and get her. Xmas shopping now if I can be bothered
Caro - hopefully only a couple of weeks. Four weeks at the most, the GP reckoned. Yes, counselling - he is very open to it. I went to see my counsellor anyway yesterday and I've been referred for individual relationship counselling to start with. The idea is at the moment that I feed the information back to him while he is time poor (I do accept he is busy) and then we go for couples' counselling. That was my idea, not his thiugh - when I said last night, he said he was more than willing to go together first. So that's good I guess. Method to my madness is that the waiting list is shorter this way! Fingers crossed for your sister
Hello. Tatty with a headache here! Lol. Had to change name as I was worried about someone unpleasant and sneaky checking up on me. Had been into my phone messages and FB messages. Things have settled down a bit but he has been blaming me for everything (deflecting guilt, methinks) and last week was truly awful. Tuesday night last week he got steaming drunk and threw everything at me (not punches, thank goodness, just a lot of resentment). He's not backing down either. Anyway, we have decided to be kind to each other and see how it goes. Little does he know that I have got a timeline in my head by which time he will be out on his ear if things aren't right. During this time I shall be mostly squirrelling away money and seeking legal advice!
((CM)) If it's any consolation, I hate Xmas too. Scrooge, me. Sorry all lovers of everything festive!!
Huge congrats Hoggle Such lovely news. Really made me smile
Well done Pip and JG.
Any news on the cat, Camlo?
Lotte - I am sooooo jealous of your parents! Just what I need right now...
Caro - loving the triathlon idea
So sorry but another me post alert I guess there's never a good time for things like this, but I have been to the doc today as I'm concerned. I've been having a lot of irregular bleeding and pain in my back and lower left abdomen. And bleeding after sex (not like there's been any for a couple of weeks, but hey!). And I can't remember if I've mentioned, but my mum's twin has end stage ovarian cancer. And I have taken Clomid. So I've been examined today (couldn't do an internal due to bleeding, sorry TMI) and there is some lumpiness on the left side. It could of course be scar tissue from my caesarean, or indeed an ovarian cyst. I've been referred for an urgent scan and bloods. Don't know what to think really. Trying to stay positve. Need hugs, ladies
Thanks everyone - again. Your support really does mean a lot and there are many wise words on here. CM - this is exactly what I've told him and I know he has found it difficult to accept, but he has accepted it now. I've told him it's over if it isn't this way. He has been in floods of tears, which is so unlike him I know he must feel bad. I'm enjoying him feeling bad tbh!!! Yesterday he left the office at 1 and came home with a bunch of flowers. We will see what today brings. Yesterday I just couldn't really face the world so retreated into myself completely. It was G's nursery day so I dropped both kids off and then came home and cried all day - to my mum, and then during a heated discussion with him. I feel sooo much better today though as I have come to the conclusion that I need to be as nice as possible to myself and indeed to him - because if he does decide to leave, I'll have nothing to blame myself for (not that I do anyway!) and I'll be in a better place than if I spend the next few weeks pining. This is definitely the hardest option but it actually does feel good after a while. Today our old cleaner came back and the house looks amazing. While she was here and G was having a nap, I had a shower and pampering session - got really dressed up/made up to go to JP's school play. Really enjoyed it. Then came home, helped him with homework, danced around to Bruno Mars and had tea. Haven't really thought about her at all. Not worth my brain space!
Anyway, I know I will have bad days but I'm determjned to minimise them - for my sake, but also for the kids as they are my number one priority. Mum is coming to stay tomorrow and Ben has a meeting at Keele so he's here all day and then finished just after lunch. So Mum is haivng G and we are going out for the afternoon, then to fetch JP and possibly out for dinner too.
Lotte - you're amazing Loved the report - that was full enough for my frazzled brajn right now. Wishing the spaegie away!
Aw, Camlo, I'd have a cat if you were closer. I feel I could get away with anything right now...