E.D.I - I have to say that you make a more persuasive case for AA than I have experienced before. Like many people, I have some reservations about the AA but they are based on my own assumptions and prejudices, rather than any personal experience. Welcoming and open people who want to help others to be kinder, calmer and more peaceful sound like folk I wouldn't mind in my life. If I've proved one thing to myself, it's that I am an alcoholic who isn't winning any battles alone. Thanks for making me think about taking some action.
Hi to everyone else. I haven't posted in ages but I do occasionally look in to see how you're all doing. Right now I drink loads and run never. I'd like to rearrange that sentence a little...
trigger - it's a little overcast here but it was nice to sit out in the garden until late in the evening sunshine yesterday. A little bit of summer would be a tonic. Sorry to hear you're feeling grotty.
E.D.I - not sure we've said hello yet so 'hi'! You've written posts that make a lot of sense and it's been good to read. From my own perspective, the discussion about drinking being symptomatic of deeper problems is interesting. I'm a happy person with a good life and I work hard doing a job I adore. I have a good understanding of mental health and feel I know myself well. In spite of this I drink every day and know that I am an alcoholic. If this is symptomatic of something, I have no idea of what it might be. I'm not saying that I disagree that problem drinking is always caused by underlying issues and I'm sure it usually is. In my case it might help if I knew there was a reason so I could work on but it just doesn't feel like it.
sinbad - great news on the early morning run - that kind of commitment puts me to shame! I'm pleased that you find some comfort in having a space here to throw things down and get them out of your head. It's incredible that people who have posted here over the years accept, care about and give unconditional support to people they've often never met in person. I've always thought the booze thread is a special place and I'm glad it's proving positive for you.
I hope everyone else is good and not feeling too much like it's a Monday morning!
Hi everyone - I've not been on for a while and I hope things are OK for everyone. My current status can be easily summarised: Life is quite good but no running and too much drinking.
sinbad - I've just had a quick look back at your recent posts and I'm sorry things have been so tough for you.
I've worked in the field of community mental health for some time and know that PTS and BPD are two conditions that are a long way from being understood and that support and treatment is still being developed. I've known people for whom EMDR has worked effectively in enabling living with PTS and others for whom DBT has very helpful to manage some of symptoms of BPD. I'm sure these are options that the professionals who have supported you have suggested but if not, it might be worth asking your GP about them. You always appear to me to have an intelligent insight into your own life and difficulties and that would be a good starting point for these kind of interventions.
I haven't seen anyone who has suggested that you shouldn't post, or that you change the nature of what you post. We've all got our difficulties and there has always been an openness and supportive spirit here and I think you've both benefitted and contributed to it; I think we all welcome that from each other.
I guess all I would add is try not to mistake concern that people show for you for a message that you are not welcome as that is definitely not the case. I think in any community people will react differently to someone in distress - some will simply not want to comment for fear of saying the wrong thing or making things worse but this often comes from a place of compassion, rather than because people don't care.
After some of your life experiences, I'm sure there will always be challenges but you seem resilient. Others have advised that you seek professional help so I won't add to that, other than to say I agree. However, alongside that, do the things that make you feel freer, like the sailing and runnning...and keep letting us know how it's all going.
I hope everyone else is OK and enjoying the weekend.
It's a beautiful spring morning here and very welcome it is too!
I'm really pleased to see you back on the thread sinbad - your last post was very thought-provoking and sensitive. I do know quite a bit about BPD and it's obvious that you're working incredibly hard every day to counteract the issues you face. I'm also very pleased to be part of a community here that you find to be helpful, friendly and non-judgemental.
Cinders - I hope you get out for a run today. I'm sure you would be fine doing the new parkrun but maybe a private time trial or two would be good first. I haven't run in ages and really need to make some positive lifestyle changes again, including getting my running shoes on!
trigger- great news in the cross country pb! I also hope you enjoy your week or so of trashy TV!
I hope everyone else is good - I seriously need to get my drinking, eating and exercise back on track as it's been a bad month or two. Other than that, life feels pretty good but booze and laziness do keep creeping up on me (along with some unwelcome added weight)!