Nope, work not forthcoming. Finally got a reply from the guy in charge who told me they've cut back classes etc etc so he'll get in touch if he needs temporary cover. Somehow I don't think I'll be available... Left a voicemail with the female colleague saying thanks for her message and explained how I felt no-one had been straight with me and that no-one's ever even observed my teaching so I don't know why I've been left out. I expect she'll ignore that too but at least I've said it. Feel unbelievably angry and hurt by the whole thing. Grr. Worst organised department in the country and least communicative. The agency system they use totally exploits the staff - they have you at their beck and call with no guarantee of work or permanence and zero benefits, and the option to drop you when they like. It sucks. Apologies for rant.
Minks - do you know why the experienced one wants to change to do almost exactly the same job but in a different department? Is it possible she's getting fed up with it?? I think you can't predict what someone will do in the future, so you should employ someone based on the here and now, to be fair. I understand your predicament though - tricky one!
Well I got a reply from the woman I work with finally (she tried ringing but I was helping school so missed it) and she says of course I've done nothing wrong and they're looking into putting on another class. Either way, I'm determined that this time next year I will not still be in this ridiculous situation of waiting and wondering and being at the beck and call. Thanks for the support .
Thanks for the advice. It actually terrifies me to confront someone face to face, but added to that is it is very hard to find anyone at any specific moment as the teachers work on different sites around the college. My colleague who has a nearly full timetable said she mentioned it to the man I'm trying to contact in passing and he said he is going to get in touch with me. Had a cry this afternoon and felt better - can never tell if it's just hormonal or genuine! I think I am better at blocking feelings out when I am not hormonal. Sometimes I just can't cope with thinking about upsetting things anymore and don't even want to think about them - I'm reaching that stage with this I think but I want to get it sorted so I can move on.
In the meantime I think I am going to apply for some admin/student advice etc. jobs at the Universities. One is 20 hours a week so would be ideal. I'm feeling pretty disillusioned with teaching in general! Still enjoying the 3 classes I have but we have a long way to go to get them to pass their English.
Anyway enough waffle about me. My mum had the scan results - nothing nasty found anywhere, only the enlarged lymph node. She's going to have a biopsy on it and presumably removed if it is cancerous (I assume no further treatment will be needed). Not sure how it got there - up the lymph node I assume - but it looks as though it is fairly contained. Mum is feeling slightly happier .
Fingers crossed for the house move PG3! Hope it all goes through smoothly. Definitely agree about sugar being addictive - MIL keeps sending cakes over for the kids and God when we get back from school do I want one! Yet if I eat something else healthier, the craving goes away (current fave is granola-type cereal with fat-free natural yoghurt and fresh strawberries ). I came across this website of some nutritionist in America who described a client she had, and she actually said some interesting things. Like eating proper food that your body can digest, instead of artificial this and that and monowotsit and things we've never even heard of. She gave an example of asking which would you choose, a banana or something unhealthy (I forget what it was - some diet food I think!) and the client said of course the banana would be healthier, but the nutritionist said the banana actually has more calories but is far better for you.
I certainly feel better anyway.
Right, bedtime. I'm going in to help with Sophie's Y2 class tomorrow afternoon which I'm looking forward to. The only downside of working more hours would be not being as involved in helping at school which I do enjoy, but it obviously isn't paid.
Ew to standing on a spider! I just saw the front page of a newspaper (Daily Mail or something) this morning saying the spiders are bigger this year - we've certainly had a few enormous ones so far. *shudders*
Good idea to back off a bit Minks. I have slight concerns over doing Filey 10k (mostly along the beach) on Sunday and the Great Yorkshire run the following Sunday, having not raced since the beginning of the year. Hopefully my legs will hold up and not stiffen up too much in between. Your work situation must be very frustrating - I have had this the whole summer, not being able to plan anything, and it's done my head in!
And now, after keeping myself free ready for September, they have told me nothing. Nothing at all. Not "we don't need you this year", or "we might need you this year" or "we're still finalising things" or anything, so I am assuming the worst as my colleague has her timetable. It has really upset me as I've worked there for the last 2 years and I feel that no-one is being straight with me. I have tried to get in touch with 2 people to get some answers and they've both ignored me so far. I just keep going over and over why they don't want me to teach there and what I must have done wrong. It is doing my head in .
Hopefully my mum will get a result from the scan today. I'm not sure what they can tell before doing a biopsy, but I guess they can see how big the lump is and things.
Anyway, I'm trying to enjoy my free days, and I have 3 hours teaching something new so I am trying to get my head round the exam requirements so I can hopefully get the students to pass their English. £250 a month is not going to go far though...
Still off the biscuits, cakes and chocolates - weight is creeping down very very slowly and if nothing else I am not just eating for the sake of it.
Hope you are doing as well as can be expected, Caro.