I'm a member of a club but haven't run with them for a long time. I do tend to run on my own. I've just signed up for a marathon (a few minutes ago) and have plenty of time to train, so I MUST approach this sensibly and start the training when I am supposed to start it and not make excuses.
Manchester hasn't had a single good year. Baggage issues or not actual marathon distance. They keep saying they'll put it right but how many chances do they deserve? They'll still charge an extortionate amount to enter with no guarantee you'll actually do what you signed up for. Chester and Liverpool are well organised, or maybe something a little more low key like Blackpool. Abingdon gets good reviews but you need to be quick before it sells out.
I had a spell of anxiety and depression a couple of years ago which hit me like a train. Before this I was running regularly and found running helped alleviate my mood. When it got so bad I finally accepted help and saw a doctor. I'm fine now and the whole thing seems silly when I look back on it and I'm embarrassed by my actions back then (I know I shouldn't be but in my head, that's where I am).
Now the reason I am posting this here is because my running has never really come back. I have spells where I am motivated for a couple of weeks but find running hard (because of the lack of training). My weight has increased and my pace isn't what it was (obviously). I really want to run but I often come up with excuses or procrastinate and then never go for that run. When it does happen I end up trying to do too much too soon and get injured which sets me back again.
I just want to run.
I don't really know the point of this post. I probably know all the advice, but my brain won't listen.
I'm feeling really lazy and lethargic. Watching the London Marathon will motivate me temporarily but then I'll come up with an excuse....