TD - Paris was my eighth marathon including an ultra, and five of them (2009, 2012 x 2, 2013 4:00:09, 2014) were possible sub fours that didn't work out. The goal is getting in the way of other stuff. I agree achieving it is one might challenging task and I think I will have given it a real try... like you said to Leggy, we shouldn't stake too much of who we are about numbers and achievements.
A bit abrupt on my part.. apologies! Heroine - I'm with you on the not wanting to be rubbish at something and the bit about enjoying the challenge rather than it being a chore. Travelling 26.2 miles and feeling like dreadful because you're trying to do something you're not quite able to/
Oooo rubbish website!! I wrote a long soul searching post and it crashed. Crux of it was.. I want a sub four, I am capable of one. If I don't achieve it at Stratford, I'll give up on the dream (how long for I don't know) and run some HMs and 10Kms.