Shades, I was thinking that maybe I'm being a bit oversensitive, which I suppose is a distinct possibility! Regardless of that, I'm still finding it annoying. At the end of the day I'm doing nothing wrong, and I just need to forget about some of the comments. My close friends and family know the real situation and that's what matters to me.
Yes, Monday's appointment will be tough. It's just another small step along this process I'm going through. The timing isn't great but I'd rather get it done sooner rather than later.
Hi SK - I hope you enjoy being tail runner. I've done it a couple of times at around that sort of pace, which is just quite a slow walk really. I stopped and chatted to most of the marshals and then jogged to catchup the tail runner to keep warm more than anything. If you swipe your barcode it still counts towards your 50 T-Shirt though, unless you don't want a poor time on your stats. Personally I don't mind about a poor time on my stats, so the two times I've done it I've swiped my barcode.
I'm pretty busy down here, and have "stuff" planned for Xmas day. Steph and her partner are coming down, and we're all going out with my Dad and his partner, plus an Uncle of mine. We're going to a pub for Xmas day which isn't something I'd usually do, but in some ways it's good to be doing something different this year.
I can't remember if I've said but I've joined a group called Widowed and Young. I don't really like the name of the group as it's quite direct, but the local "branch" met yesterday in Plymouth so I went along to see them. I was quite nervous to be honest, but I'm glad I went. I think there were about 12 of us there with people at different stages (I was the "newest" - 3 months today actually), there was someone there at around 4 months and the rest were 12 months up to about 4 years I think. They were a friendly bunch and in some ways I found it better than the counselling I've been having. Actually, regarding the counselling I've postponed the last two sessions but have arranged to see her again in the New Year.
It's all kicking off with Claire's case now. I got a text on Thursday from the lead consultant saying he wants to meet with me, and I'm seeing him on Monday. I've been waiting for this meeting for weeks but now I've got it I don't want it. I know that makes little sense, but as soon as I got that text it brought back the last 3 days of Claire's life which I'd rather forget, and I had a massive wobble. I can't forget it though as I need to get to the bottom of what happened, but I fear I'm going to have more questions than answers when I leave on Monday. I need to be prepared for the meeting (which I am) as I need to try and relay the information back to Claire's family as best I can. Linda (Claire's Mum) will be with me at the meeting as an observer.
A couple of things are really p***ing me off. Steph put some photos on Facebook of our weekend in London and I thought nothing of them (my settings are such that I authorise updates before they're posted to my wall/timeline, and I happily clicked "Accept"). A female acquaintance commented, and I quote, "we look like a great couple". I'm sure she meant nothing by it, but it annoyed me. Steph and I are very close (we always have been) and we did have a great time - we were both laughing and joking around in the all the photos. But we are obviously, definitely not a couple, and I am allowed to have fun still, aren't I?!!? Similarly, I'm seeing a female friend in Exeter later - we are 100% definitely just friends, but people are raising their eyebrows. I need to forget about what other people may be thinking and just get on with things, but it's annoying me. Rant over!
Anyway, running-wise I got a 10-miler in on Wednesday and a 6-miler in on Thursday night. I was supposed to be parkrunning today, but I need to stay in for a package that is being sent recorded delivery, so haven't been able to go as I need to sign for it. I have decided to clean the bathroom instead - marvellous!
Shades, from the blurb of the talk I'm going to it says that all profits got to charity, and at £12 a ticket I didn't think it was too bad. I managed to get seats on the second row so should be good hopefully.
Regarding late nights/early mornings I just can't do it anymore. I was totally shattered when I got home on Monday, slept very well, but was still like a zombie on Tuesday. I had stuff to do on Tuesday, but that was just making me more irritable I'm a bit more with it today though, thankfully!
Hi all - some good running going on as always. Good luck Jugula and Khani this weekend.
I'm back after my weekend away in London with Steph. She (and London) have tired me out! I need to get back on the running as I've missed a couple of sessions. We were supposed to run on Sunday, but that didn't happen after a late night (3:30am....I'm too old for those shenanigans) on Saturday. I was supposed to run last night but was too tired and have been busy today, so definitely back to it tomorrow.
I noticed Jo Pavey is doing a talk in Exeter in January, so I've booked tickets to see that.