I experienced a traumatic bereavement last summer - my brother took his own life after many years battling depression. For many months afterwards I suffered insomnia and acute physical and mental exhaustion.
I tried to stick to a running routine - as a stress busting outlet I needed it more than ever - but when I had bad days and a planned run - I had to let the run slide.
I managed around my energy levels as best I could.
I was training for my first marathon and completed Manchester in April and raised money for Mind in memory of my brother. It offered me something to focus on but I did not stick to plan - it just was not possible.
I recognised that I had to listen to my body - cut myself some slack - and be kind and respectful to my body and soul.
I found that when I felt I wanted to get out - I just did a distance I felt I wanted to do - sometimes I surprised myself and did more than I originally anticpated I would do when first heading out. Sometimes I called time after 3 miles - reasoning it was better than nothing.
I had counselling which was invaluable.
Trauma is exhausting. The levels of exhaustion that I experienced were incredibly debilitating. Mind and body were completely floored.
You need to take care of yourself and don't put unnecessary pressure on yourself.
Exercise gently, eat well try to sleep well and get a talking therapy in place for when you feel ready.