Before I got my first sober 24 hours in, there had not been one single day in the previous 8 years (at least) where I'd been sober.
I know what it's like to try and stay sober with white knuckles. You notice all the TV adverts advertising booze. You notice all the different areas they sell booze in the supermarkets. You notice a lot of stuff that you don't notice when you're drinking.
I also know it's like Japanese water torture and it kept on 'dripping' till I snapped and drank. They say that when we stop drinking that we feel better. And we do. We feel anxiety better, depression better, anger better; time just goes so slow.
Fitness works, to a point, and like a drug, eventually it stops working.
Well done on the four months and sorry for my negativity. I see alkies all the time who try to do this on their own, and the results aren't usually good.
If you find you can't overcome 'these obstacles', which I'm inferring you mean a drinking problem, then please, seek help. Four days sober is no big deal you know? Sorry, but it just isn't. Anyone can stop drinking, staying stopped was what I found hard. The thing about being sober is that time goes slowly, I felt restless, irritable and discontented; I didn't know what to do with myself. Anxiety and stress wore me down till I snapped and started drinking. Then once I started, I usually finished the job.
And as the years ticked by, my alcoholism just got progressively worse; that's pretty normal.
I found my solution in A.A., but there's lots of different organisations and programs around; honestly, if you find you can't do it by yourself, start investigating some outside help.
My alcohol problem is seven day a week consumption for a release of tension. I like the mild effect but then when I count weekly units, I find that I have drunk four times or more the suggested limit. Of course, once a month or maybe more, my degree of drunkenness is greater than simple tension release.
You have some insight into why alcoholics drink (I'm not saying you are one). Alkies don't drink because we like the flavour of booze, we drink for the effect. And we always pick up our first drink SOBER. It's our sober feelings that are the problem - you describe yours as stress - and what we do is use booze as a solution to that problem.
Feelings are powerful things; they really do drive us to do stuff. For me, I could stay sober for a while, but my sober feelings were like Japanese water torture and I'd snap and drink. And once I started drinking I found it difficult to moderate. I actually craved for more booze once I'd had one-or-two.
This locked me into cycle of hard drinking for a lot of years.