Eric, only you can truly know the situation with the level of depression and tablets.
Unfortunately many Dr's will prescribe tablets far too early. But coming off prescription median should not be taken lightly as many times the medication is making us better we think we can reduce or come off them and it all starts again.
I have tried many relaxation methods but the one that works for me when I need it is as follows.
I build a house....... I start at the beginning imaging myself looking for land and then how I would get stuff there like water, gas ect, then I imagine meeting with builders ect ect..... This can go for many hours..... Its a method I got from an ex special forces person who I was told use it to distract themselves in questioning after being captured.
One thing that made me double take is your 14.5 stones and a little under 6". Scotty you’re a great weight to road run and if anyone is looking at you it’s because there thinking "wish I could do that"
The mental block is something you will get over, and then lose it again, then loss it then guess what! Yep find it again lol.
I have to say I do run on the tread mill quite a lot and it takes that little bit more dedication and mind wandering to get through it, but its defiantly achievable.
I currently am 15.8 stone and 6" tall. I run 3 or 4 times a week as below.
1 x 1 Hour as fast is comfortable (Treadmill or Road/trail)
1 or 2 x 10k speed varies from 1 Hour 5 Min to 1 Hour 7 minutes. (Treadmill or road/trail)
1 x Long Run increased by 5 minutes currently at 2 hours 40 minutes. (Treadmill or road/trail)
I started running again 11 months ago which was 15 minutes walking on a tread mill.
I was 24 stone 13 Pounds 8 months ago and started running on at about 20 stone.
On the tread mill I either use music or TV (Sorry posh gym)
One thing is to be mindful of when increasing distance, try not to reward yourself for a good session. I am starving after a long run and without a snack within an hour I am looking to eat the whole fridge lol
Fell over on a trail in Forest of Dean, path used by dog walkers and I tripped and did a stunt type forward roll and back on my feet and kept my composure and kept running to hear a round of applause from 3 locals sat on a bench........
Great news on the smoking.....
Should I pay attention to the injury? Yes Yes & Yes.
I suffered when I first started running and terrible pain in legs. Some one emailed me asking how many times a week I ran and my total distance and his response was just the words "To Much".
Had 2 weeks off running and reduced this to 3 times a week and well I have not had a injury since..... currently clearing between 30-45k per week...... 3-4 runs.