I not been running at all this week, I'm kicking myself as I had increased from from to 4miles 3 miles back to 4 miles.
I agree its not the same as real face to face contact. But I have lost my confidence in building up real friendships, I fell out with my friend who I had been on holiday with.
In a way I see that as I good thing, as I am back to once a week, and working on that.
With regards to online its something better than nothing routine, its why I not been out running. I been to all of them so far this first week. I feel drained mentally. Its a lot to take in, and it has taught me some things so far.
I hope to get out for at least a 4 mile walk Saturday.
EDI I just wish I could get the marathon done, let alone ultramarthon, as that's my ultimate dream to do. If it helps go for it.
1 Hour 13 mins 55 seconds for 4 hours, terrible. But it is the start of a new distance.
I guess its also the start of a new era to. As I fell out with the guy I went on holiday with, he wanted me to meet a guy we met on holiday that I didn't like. So he didn't like that I said tough, and that's that.
There is a a plus to this. It means I can make the decision, booze or running. I'm realizing that its very difficult to do both.
The second time is because I voluntarily went to the job center to see the disability adviser. She was not there Thursday, and I got stressed about not hearing from her Friday. I don't have to see her, I want to. I want to see if there is anything I can do to try and get back into work. It means running through all my history again, and it stresses me out.
I'm okay with 5 k now. So I'm upping the distance to the stage where I'm doing 4 then a 3 then back to 4 mile.
In just one week, I had dropped from 54 minutes for 5 k to a few seconds off under 50 minutes for 5 k. I have increased from 3.3 mph to 3.6 mph.
I don't need to tell the disability adviser my history, but I do want to work. It's hard because in the past I have been told I am too difficult to train, not ability but to train. That I'm not quite ready yet. To people who were meant to help, but instead put me down, when I was crying out for help.
Will just have to see what this disability adviser has to say.
Hope all okay.
This weather is so oppresive. No thunder storms, but loads of rain.,