Thanks for the various replies. Some kind of predictable some helpful.
I want to be fit and healthy for my little girl and to be able to grow up with her. I guess I've just gone off it all and finding something new might be the key. What that is I don't know.
It's a shame because I loved running.
I'm definitely not depressed though, I have everything I could want and although I don't spend my days permanently happy (who does?) I am in a wonderfully settled place in my life. I just seem to have lost the enjoyment for running.
In 2012 I caught the running bug. I entered the half marathon Run to the Beat in London and started to push on with my training. The shin splints stopped me dead in my tracks. So much pain.
Three weeks before the race and having not run in three to four months the race pack turned up and I decided that I was going to do this race. A fire was lit and with only three weeks prep I ran it in 1hr 55 minutes.
I carried on running, looking for a cure for the shin splints while pushing myself on to faster and further distances. In January 2013 I had what I thought was a promising relationship fail and I decided that I'd stick to running.
I entered a number of races at various distances, including giving myself 3 months to train for my first marathon in Hamburg. A month before the marathon I was running 13.1 miles for enjoyment on a Friday night after work, I was fitter and healthier than I had ever been. I loved running and it made everything seem better. My body was stronger, my mind sharper and I was happier.
The marathon took its toll though. I wasn't able to run for about 4 months after due to a couple of injuries and it was almost a year before I felt injury free. In that time I met someone and I am now preparing for our wedding and our first baby. I am even happier than I was when I was running all those miles. Unfortunately I think being happy might be part of the problem. I used to run to let all the rubbish go, now there is no need.
Last year I started training a bit again and this time aimed for speed. I got my first sub 20 5km, a sub 45 10km and a 1.38 half marathon but if I'm honest I didn't enjoy the training. The achievements were great, but the build up was a slog.
This year I just can't get going. Little pains that would never have stopped me two years ago now give me an excuse to put the PS4 on instead. I don't get the buzz from finishing a run like I used to. I want to train and run regularly, I don't want to become a rotund middle age father, but finding the drive to do it is really tough at the moment.
I'm wondering if anyone has any good ideas to help me get back out there, or gone through the same and came through the other side?
Your shoes will make little or no difference to the impact. When you calculate the numbers you will see why. Running puts a tremendous stress on your body and at nearly 20st that is all the more relevant. I'd recommend mixing your running with some cycling and or swimming for some lower impact training.
As said above I recommend a walk run program. Keep your calories in check. Running is great exercise, but people have a tendency to reward themselves with treats that undo all the good work and then some on top. It is really hard to run from a bad diet.
Get some advice on running technique. Try not to stretch your legs out too far in front of you, your feet should land below your knees. Anything in front of that is putting extreme force through your knees and hips and is actually slowing you down.
Enjoy the progress you make, but take it slow. Pushing it too hard will lead to injury and that can be devastating when you are making good progress. Remember slow and steady progress is the best way forward.
Good luck buddy, I was 17 and a half stone at one point, now happily at 13st 6, I've been there and done it. The sacrifice is worth it!
You seem to be running at a reasonable level and I imagine that means you are covering a lot of miles. Some of this injury could be as simple as too many miles without the necessary base fitness behind it. Only you will know if you have been pushing that too far though.
For me personally I think structured support shoes are a nightmare for most runners. I think they encourage the foot into an unnatural shape and position and keep it there throughout a run when a foot should be able to turn and mould itself to the run, it should be the point of contact that fires all the other muscles off in your legs and right up to your core. A support shoe stops lots of this happening.
For me a neutral shoe is the right shoe for most people, I mean the name even suggests it. If you have been running for a long time, your body should be able to cope with you feet having a bit more freedom!
As for the shoes, well you just need to try a load on. Personally I'd stay away from anything Nike. The people in their shops have no clue about how any of their shoes work or who they are supposed to be for and having tried to talk to Nike about it, I feel like most of the company doesn't have a clue either! To me they entice you in with good (fashion) design, but the substance isn't there behind it.
I'd do a load of research, then wait for a sale while you recover then go and try a load on and see how you get on.