Posted: Today at 12:08
In other news, I have discovered that I am now called a WAYWOK. Sounds like something out of Star Wars, doesn't it; Widowed and Young Without Kids. Marvellous!
I have come across this Widowed and Young group though and I think it's going to be helpful to me. They meet at a pub regularly and the people there are all in a similar position to myself, so I think they "get it" a bit. My friends and family have all been great, but of course they don't understand what I'm going though. This isn't a criticism, but they don't understand; how could they?
I'm usually okay with words I think but I am struggling to get my thoughts across to people. I say things like "I'm missing her terribly", "she was my soulmate" or "on occasion, I just feel very lonely". These words are just words though, and they don't convey what I'm trying to say. I think if I'm with people who have been through it, they may know what I'm going on about even if I can't actually find the words.
I have had what I think is atrocious service from various people, even government people. I got the results of the postmortem which meant that I could then register the death. I was asked to ring and make an appointment, which I did. I had built myself up to do it and I was sitting at the desk holding back tears when the registrar said that she couldn't do anything as she hadn't received the paperwork from the corner's office. So a) why on earth did they book an appointment if they knew they didn't have the paperwork? b) why hadn't they got the paperwork when I was told they would have? c) why hadn't the person whose job it is to send the paperwork to the registrar done their job?
It's all incredibly frustrating and I am not going to swear on here but I was very angry/upset; not with the lady in front of me as it wasn't her fault, but just with the whole situation. They booked another appointment for me two days later and it was all sorted then.
I did get a letter from the coroner's office saying he was very apologetic and that it shouldn't have happened. It was nice he took the time to write to me apologising, but people basically aren't doing their jobs and it's driving me mad. When I think of Claire who was so diligent in her work, it's making my blood boil that the people dealing with her are so incompetent. I know to them it's just a job, but we're dealing with someone who has died!
Anyway, rant over.