Posted: 26/02/2015 at 08:20
My Dad has had his operation. I went to see him yesterday afternoon and he looked groggy still and was in a bit of pain, but the nurses were giving him pain relief. I'll go back in and see him today.
I did make it to the AGM but I did make a bit of an idiot of myself! I broke down in tears, in a room full of people. Whoops! As the chairman was reading his report he mentioned me, Claire and Jay. I probably should have expected that he'd mention us, but I didn't expect it and the floodgates immediately opened. I was embarrassed but people were great.
There are quite a few changes going on at the club in terms of committee membership, as a key member resigned his roles late last year. But the club is a strong one and all the vacancies were formally filled, with the exception of the Social Secretary. Also, I am now officially not the press officer. I didn't put my name forward as I still don't think I can do the job as well as I'd want to, but the main thing is that I don't want to deal with people's "issues" around the reports at the moment.
You know how I said Suzy and I aren't that close? Well that all escalated massively yesterday. We haven't been in touch since Steph's funeral and at that we hardly spoke. She texted out of the blue yesterday, but it ended with her saying she doesn't want to hear from me again. Doing it via text was dumb (on my part, and hers), but I then called her and she said the same thing over the phone, so I guess that's that. It's a shame, but I am okay with it. We're just very different people. If my relationship with my MiL and FiL changes because of it though, I will find that upsetting, but I'll see how that goes over the next few days/weeks.
I'm told that this type of thing happens quite often through bereavements, when stress levels are running high. But I am okay with how I handled my side of things - I wasn't nasty or vindictive or anything like that. We have both lost so much, but that alone wasn't going to bring us closer, although it's still a shame it's come to this.