Posted: 06/12/2013 at 21:05
I got drunk yesterday, a trigger happened, and I didn't know how to handle it. But I will put something in place.
They say when we stop drinking that we feel better. We feel anxiety better, we feel worry better, we feel anger better, we feel resentment better; you get the picture.
And talk of 'triggers' isn't very helpful; everything is a trigger when we're alcoholics; consciousness is the trigger - because when we're conscious we feel - and the only way I know how to avoid consciousness is either to sleep or to drink myself to blackout.
The festive season is the trigger of all triggers too; any deficiency that we feel our lives have seems to get multiplied x 1000 during Christmas.
And I've never seen my A.A. homegroup so busy at the moment. Every week we're getting at least one-or-two newcomers, or someone who has been before a while back, then returned under the lash of their alcoholism.
I've spoken with Mrs EDI to make sure it's okay with her (it is) my A.A. homegroup is on a Tuesday, it'll be on on Christmas Eve, so I'll make sure I'm there in case someone needs a meeting. Maybe someone like you, Sinbad?