Posted: 15/05/2014 at 16:26
Somehow got to find the motivation of pushing the booze and training forward now, were already talking about new year though.
Sinbad, one thing to be aware of is that will power generally never seems to be much good when it comes to alcoholics and stopping drinking. Of course will power is involved, but it's not good for a long term solution. Why? Because it fails us, mate. I once got three months sober using will power; it wasn't much fun; and then I cracked and drank, just like you did after the 12 days.
Staying sober using will power is a bit like Japanese water torture. We feel restless, irritable, discontented; anxious; and that little voice in our heads is saying, "Hey, a drink would sort that out! A drink would sort that out". Eventually we cave in - maybe we just plan to drink a few to take the edge off it, but once we start drinking we crave for more and we've got to get the job finished.
The secret (it's not really) to long term sobriety is to try and feel comfortable in our own skin. If we have some measure of internal peace, we haven't got those feelings that drive us to drink.
I found my solution to getting some measure of peace through A.A.'s 12 Steps and I can honestly say that I don't obsess about alcohol anymore at all. The problem is just gone.
It's an easier way to live, mate.