Posted: 23/11/2013 at 22:29
I'm sorry, Slim, didn't realise you'd had such a dreadful time. Your very honest report really moved me.
You've entered IMW, and that was a good move. I think maybe you have to come back after a bad one to really mature as a long distance triathlete. (I seriously underestimated a fairly key event last month, ie. all my fault, and have also been asking myself what it's all for).
I think you're being a bit harsh on yourself about getting addicted and the effect on your family. Lots of blokes spend 3 hours a day down the pub etc, and your family must be proud of you. You may have had a bug on the day (not that Meldy's opinion is likely to be worth listening to ), but you probably wouldn't have killed yourself.
Looking forward to sharing IMW preparation with you,