Posted: 18/05/2015 at 11:07
Hi all, sorry for the disappearance. I've had some soul searching and decision making to do. I really appreciate the help and advice on here and yes that includes the tough love feedback. After all we are all here cos of a love of the same thing.
So after many talks with the girlfriend and mother I've decided I am pulling out of the Half Ironman UK and will swap my full Ironman to a race later in the year. I am simply not fit enough and after weighing myself 2 weeks ago (around the time I disappeared) I was a stone heavier then what I thought. Knowing my body I know how much I lose per week and I would simply not do myself justice doing the half ironman or full. The last 14 miles of London I hate every step and I don't want to be like that for 16 hours in Bolton, hating it from the start knowing I'm not fit enough to do the event the justice it deserves.
I'm gutted, I hate pulling out of things and quitting (I finished London Marathon 2012 with bleeding kidneys) so to do this really upsets me. I've recently had someone I know pass away at 29 playing rugby and it made me think I need to be in far far better shape then I am as if I do anything remotely like a half or full ironman I risk injury. Even training I don't enjoy and when I was last fit in 2013 I loved training, setting PB's etc. I was doing 8 minute miles, not like the 13 a few months ago.
So as a family we are thinking about swapping to the Turkey half in October, this gives me plenty of time to get fit, get weight off and put myself in a position where I can do it how I know I can. We thought about the Turkey one as we can make it the annual family holiday too and stay there for 11 days.
I am also thinking about doing the London Triathlon 9th August, the Olympic plus distance, to give me a step up from sprint to half ironman plus I've always wanted to do that event. I have the great north run and York marathon in October too to aim for so plenty to keep me motivated and focused.
Then hopefully if all goes well I'm in good shape to start the assault for Bolton next year. Both the mother and girlfriend and a few others have stated they are worried if I do the half or full now. The shock was when I weighed myself and I was a stone heavier then I thought.
I really appreciate everyones help and Daves emails, I just don't want to injure myself or do permanent damage (I've had 3 knee ACL reconstructions) and after recent events it's made me evaluate things more.
I'll be in Bolton all day cheering you guys doing it on, it will pee me off and I'll be grumpy but feel I need to so I can fully appreciate what it takes.