Posted: 20/03/2015 at 10:43
CM, love your 'group hug' post - fab. I think I can understand where you are coming from on the relationship thing. You attach guilt to your relationship with N because he was the catalyst for you to leave T. In which case could it be looked on more positively - i.e. that you would ultimately have left T anyway to save your sanity, but having N just made that happen sooner? So actually N has done you a favour by hastening that situation.
It may just be that having been the catalyst, you just feel that N has served his purpose and you no longer want a relationship with him. Which is absolutely fine. I think counselling will only work if both of you want the same outcome (as CC is discovering) and when you don't, it's just an uncomfortable place to be for the person who doesn't want 'happily ever after' for the relationship. I'd feel the same about the pie chart FWIW!!
Nuro, good to hear you sounding positive. I'm not sure I really get the whole mindfulness thing but it seems to be having a positive effect on quite a few people here so that's great.
PG3, so proud of you for standing up for yourself at work and saying what needed to be said. And really great that you had such a positive response to that from someone senior. Even if the sh*t still hits the fan at least you can feel that you had your say.
Lotte, great that you're feeling so much better and getting back to your previous form. Pesky iron has a lot to answer for! LOL at Sophie; bless.
TTid, glad the lump amounted to nothing more than a cyst - you don't need any more stress at the moment!
Caro, thinking of you re. FIL. Hope he is comfortable and peaceful. Was thinking of you yesterday with Whipps Cross being in the news (not for good reasons!) and remembering your experiences there!
Six weeks on Sunday until London. Training has been going well - I have done all my scheduled runs so far and I have to say I'm feeling good at the moment and stronger than on previous occasions at this point in the training. Last time I felt I overtrained and just felt constantly knackered; I've been doing a little less this time and it suits me better. I refuse to get hung up on what other people do or think I should do and just focus on what I know has worked for me in the past and hopefully will again. I also signed up for my first ultra - the Grand Union Challenge. It's 50K so not too big a step up. I'm still a bit unsure about 50K of essentially towpath running as opposed to varied offraod terrain but the decision was ultimately made for me as the other event I was considering clashed with this summer's school reunion and I just have to go to that or I will die of curiosity wondering what people look like after all this time (I have seen a few photos and am secretly quite chuffed that some of the people I didn't like much are now quite overweight and look older than they are. There are also one or two I don't even recognise because they've changed so much!)